really want to participate in the divine act of creation right now but i can't because i have other stuff i have to be doing (revising for a really fucking important exam that i have to pass in order to continue on my media course, despite the fact that i have never in the past almost 6 years of high school found a revision strategy that sticks in my fucking brain, AND writing a monologue for a play i have to be in for drama class with two people who think im stupid at best and actively hate me at worst who expect my chemically imbalanced brain to keep up with them and have it done three days from now) so my aforementioned chemically imbalanced brain has decided that i should do nothing about either option but still feel stressed and guilty and bad and stressed and guilty and bad and stressed and guilty and bad and and and and and and and and man im gonna fail my exams aren't i