Unpleasant, Self-Realizations

It's hard for me to have any sort of emotional ties to new people in my life. I'm not as open-minded as I expect other people to be. I do not follow through with most projects I start. I like a lot of things but have passion almost nothing. I'm not really as intelligent as I once thought I was - that, or I am getting dumber with time. I'm way too picky and will likely result in me being alone. I believe in self-fulfilling prophecies (see previous statement). I enjoy not doing anything way too much; I look forward to shutting everything down and avoiding doing work when I get home. My short-term memory is frequently horrible. I'm good at a lot of things, but I'm not great at anything. I care too much about what others think. I fall for girls too quickly. My efficiency in life would increase ten-fold if I were more organized. I am emotionally numb and bled dry from past friendships, relationships. I am unintentionally manipulative. I used to care about people. I base my self-worth on other's opinions of me. I am appalled by overweight people. I can be cold. Self-pity is ridiculously unattractive.