Moments- (Rob Benedict x Reader) PART 3

Summary: An actress on Supernatural, you and Rob are in a relationship, and recently you had revealed to him that you had been sexually assaulted in the past; and it was why you were so afraid to be intimate. But as a songwriter, another secret gets let out.

Pairing: Rob Benedict x Reader

Word Count: 793

Warning: Mentions of past sexual assault, Emotional Confrontation, Language, Fluff lots of fluff

 “Everything alright, Robbie?” asked Rich, walking up behind his best friend. It was almost time for the Saturday Night Special, and I stayed by himself in the corner of the greenroom.

“What? Oh, um, yeah. Yeah, I’m fine. It’s just been a really long day.” I said as I rubbed my forehead. I couldn’t get Y/N’s song out of my head, especially the one lyric.

“Before you leave me today…”

Did she really think that I was going to leave her? I’m in love with her, and I thought that she knew that. Did she really think because she was afraid that I would throw that away?

“Everything okay with you and Y/N? Man, I’m sorry that whole mess got blown up earlier. I could see that you were both shaken up about it.” said Rich.

I sighed, sitting down on the floor against the wall, Rich following my actions.

“She thought I was gonna leave her.” I said. Rich whipped his head towards me, the surprise evident.

“What? What happened?”

I didn’t really know what to say; I knew I couldn’t exactly tell Rich everything.

“Something happened to her in the past, and it’s something that we talked about. But, I don’t know I guess she just thought that what had happened to her I would shame her for.” I said.

“Have you talked to her about it yet?” asked Rich.

“Haven’t had the time. She went up to our room till the concert and I got whisked away to autos and photo opps.”

All of a sudden, I could hear the sound of the door opening, I looked up and Y/N had walked in.

“Here’s your chance.” Said Rich.

“Please give a warm welcome to Louden Swain!” said Misha’s voice that could be heard from the stage. Billy, Mike, and Norton headed out, obviously waiting for me. I looked at Y/N.

“Later.” I could see her mouth.

I nodded, running out to take my place on the stage.

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I slipped my key card into my hotel room and walked inside, trying to be as quiet as I could incase Rob had fallen asleep. I could already see that it was pretty much dark in here.

Walking in, I looked up to see Rob standing there, back faced towards me as he looked out the window.

“Hey.” I said, a bit too quiet. I didn’t really know what to do. I didn’t know if the song would change things between us, and I didn’t want it to.

“Hey.” said Rob, turning to face me.

“I’m assuming you listened to the song.”

“Yeah I did.” Said Rob. He sat down on the bed, resting his hands on his legs. I could see the confliction pouring out of him.

“Do you trust me?” asked Rob, finally taking a moment to look me in the eye.

“More than anything.”

“Did you really think I would leave you, Y/N? After everything we have been through?”

I sat down in the chair across from the bed and pulled it up towards him.

“I wrote it based off of the feelings I had before we got together, hell before we got closer.” I laid my hand on top of his.

“I don’t know, I just. I just thought we were getting better. I just thought I would be able to help you, you know?” asked Rob. He stood up, walking back towards the window.

“But you do, Rob. You have, quite a bit actually.” I sighed, walking up to stand next to him.

“I’m sorry Rob, I’m sorry that this has caused you to be, I don’t know, I’m sorry that this caused you to question our relationship.”

“I love you, you know.” Said Rob.

“I know. I love you too, you know.” I said, looking at Rob.

Rob smiled, “I know.”

“Sometimes I just wish, Y/N, that I could just take all that pain away from you. I just wish that I could take all those horrible moments away from you.” Rob sat back down on the bed. 

“Well I guess that’s just what we need to do now, isn’t it?” I asked, sitting next to him again. Rob looked at me, tilting his head in confusion as he didn’t quite get what I meant.

“We create new moments, together. We create new moments together, Rob. I love you, and you love me, and that’s all that should matter. Not some silly song that I wrote in a moment of weakness.”

All of a sudden, Rob cut me off, bringing his hand to my cheek and pulling me into a kiss.

“It’s not weakness, for what it’s worth that was the most beautiful song I have ever heard.”

“God, I love you, Rob.”

“I love you too.”

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Moments- (Rob Benedict x Reader) PART 2

Summary: An actress on Supernatural, you and Rob are in a relationship, and recently you had revealed to him that you had been sexually assaulted in the past; and it was why you were so afraid to be intimate. But as a songwriter, another secret gets let out.

Pairing: Rob Benedict x Reader

Word Count: 578

Warning: Mentions of past sexual assault, Emotional Confrontation, Language, Fluff lots of fluff

A/N: This chapter is sort of a flashback, it’s the conversation Rob and the reader had. He’s remembering it as he’s listening to the song. Italics are the song lyrics. All rights to the song go to its rightful owners

Shut the door Turn the light off I wanna be with you I wanna feel your love I wanna lay beside you I cannot hide this Even though I try

“Y/N, please come out of the bathroom. We’re alright, I promise. But we need to talk about this.” said Rob carefully as he stood leaning against the bathroom door. He didn’t get it, the farthest the two of you had gotten right then was him with his shirt off, but you still took off running.

You could hear your heart beating in your ears, the fear evident as you opened the door slowly with your trembling hands.

Heart beats harder Time escapes me Trembling hands Touch skin It makes this harder And the tears stream down my face

Rob took no time to wrap you in his arms; he had put his shirt back on at some point already. Eventually the two of you made it back to the bed.

“I was 22, and I, and I missed my ride home after the late shift at a restaurant one night.” you said, trying to compose yourself. Rob sat across from you, quiet and attentive. He knew better than to interrupt you or else you would never make it through this conversation.

“God if I, if I could turn back time I would have never even had left work that day.” You closed your eyes as you tried to push away the flash backs.

If we could only have this life For one more day If we could only turn back time

You sat still as you told Rob everything; from the attack, from the stay in the hospital… to your stay in the psychiatric hospital.

“I love you so much Rob, and I want to be with you, like, like this. I swear to you. It just hurts so much; it just hurts so much because Everytime we get close all I can see is him. It feels like I’m screaming and no one can hear me.”

Hands are silent Voice is numb Try to scream out my lungs It makes this harder And the tears stream down my face.

“I guess I’m just looking for that thing to let me start over.” You felt ashamed, even though you know you shouldn’t. Here you were sitting in front of the man you loved, yet you still felt so alone.

“Then let me be it.” said Rob. You tilted you head in confusion, not really sure where he was getting at.

“Let me be your reason to be, Y/N. Let me be your voice when you can’t stop screaming. I love you, Y/N. Let me help you get through this, together.” Before he could continue, you cut him off with a kiss. Breaking apart, something was different between the two of you and both of you knew it.

“Are you sure? You know I’m perfectly content with just being with you for the rest of our lives. Nothing needs to happen.”

“That’s what makes me so sure.”

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Rob clicked the phone off as the song completed. There was one line from that song that he just couldn’t wrap his mind around.

You know I’ll be Your life Your voice Your reason to be My love My heart Is breathing for this Moment In time I’ll find the words to say Before you leave me today

There were some things that the two of you needed to talk about.

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Moments- (Rob Benedict x Reader) PART 1

Summary: An actress on Supernatural, You and Rob are in a relationship, and recently you had revealed to him that you had been sexually assaulted in the past; and it was why you were so afraid to be intimate. But as a songwriter, another secret gets let out.

Pairing: Rob x Reader              

Word Count: 1,236

Warning: Mentions of past sexual assault, Emotional Confrontation, Language, Fluff lots of fluff

A/N: It’s 6:15 AM and I haven’t slept yet. If there are any spelling or grammar mistakes, I’m not even sorry. 

Who could have ever known that one innocent fan question at a convention would open a door in your relationship that you just weren’t ready to have opened.

“Have you ever written a song about Rob?” asked a fan; as the fandom had just recently found out about you and Rob’s relationship, even though you had been dating for nearly 7 months.

Your face immediately turned red, the answer now obviously being yes. Rob, Rich, and Matt all turned to you with a smirk on their faces.

“Um, no?” You asked, not really comfortable with where this was going. The answer was obviously yes.

“Oh c’mon that is totally a lie!” said Rich, coming up and slinging his arm around you. He didn’t notice or feel you flinch, though. Rob did, though. After everything you two had been through, he knew.

“Yeah that’s a total lie, Y/N.” said Matt, laughing.

“Okay, okay fine. I have written a song for Rob, but before you even ask Rich, there’s no way you’re hearing it!” You said, turning mostly to get his arm off of you, but playing it off with a laugh.

Rob eyes widened at the answer, not even he knew about it.

“Awe why?” asked Rich.

“Cause not even Rob’s heard it for crying out loud!” you said.

Crap.

“Wait, now I wanna hear it!” said Rob, joking around still.

All of a sudden, Billy, Stephen, and Mike walked out from behind the curtain, indicating the end of the panel.

“Ah, saved by the band. That’s our panel folks!” said Rich, as the four of us slowly navigated off stage. The three of Louden Swain remained to introduce Misha.

You tried to escape to the bathroom, knowing that R2M would hound you for an explanation.

“Oh, no you don’t.” said Matt, blocking your way into the bathroom. “I can somewhat understand why Rich and I haven’t heard this mysterious song written for Rob, but not even Rob has heard it?” asked Matt. You found yourself being pushed to the couch by the three men as they stood around you.

“Look, guys. It’s not that big of a deal! No one’s heard it! Rob, I’m sorry, but I’m asking you to respect that this I just one thing I need to keep to myself.” you said, standing up and pushing past them, leaning against a table with your back facing them.

“Hey, hey. It’s okay Y/N!” said Rob, walking up behind you, turning you to face him.

“Those two idiots will shut up, I swear. If you don’t want me to hear it, I’ll respect that.”

“Hey!” yelled Matt and Rich in defense. You just laughed at the two of them before turning back towards Rob, pulling him into a hug. “Thank you.” you whispered into his chest. He just kissed the top of your head.

“What’re you guys talking about?” asked Billy all of a sudden, entering the room with the other two guys.

“Oh we just found out that Y/N had written a song for Rob.” said Rich, casually.

“Oh, Moments? It’s a beautiful song, isn’t it!” said Billy with a smile, grabbing a water bottle and sitting down on the couch. Rob, Rich, and Matt immediately spun on their heels, facing you with wide eyes.

Crap.  

You turned to Billy.

“And thank you, for that.” you said, giving him a look. His face fell as he realized what he had done. “Sorry, forgot it was supposed to be secret.” said Billy as he slid into the sofa. You looked at the other 3 innocently.

“Billy may or may not have helped me with some chords…”

Matt and Rich turned to you, automatically bombarding you with protests of wanting to hear the mysterious song; that all of a sudden you had made into a big deal. You looked at Rob, a bit defeated. He looked sad, leaning against the wall. He thought you were past all this, he thought you were past the secrets, he thought he knew everything.

He thought you trusted him.

You sighed, holding up a hand to Matt and Rich.

“Guys, shut up.” you said, silencing them immediately. You turned to your boyfriend.

“Rob?” you asked. He looked up at you questionably.

“Remember that thing we did, that thing we talked about that we swore we would never bring up again?” Matt and Rich stepped back a bit, not realizing that an intimate line would be crossed in this conversation.

Rob tilted his head confused. Of course he knew what you were talking about, but by your request he promised never to bring up the conversation you two had ever again. He was surprised you did. Never the less, he nodded.

You reached into your pocket, pulling your phone out as well as pulling the song up on it.

“Well, it’s about that. If you want to hear it, fine. If not, well fine. But there’s no way those two are gonna be in the room when you hear it, and I don’t want to be either.”

“Oh c’mon, Billy, back us up. You’ve heard it and obviously know what it’s about!” said Matt.

Billy looked up from his phone, barely even paying attention to the conversation.

“Oh, I’m with her on this one.” Billy glanced at you and Rob, realizing that the two of you didn’t expect to be put in this position today, and the five of you others being in the room probably wasn’t helping.

“Um, fellas? Why don’t we go hang out outside for a while?” he asked as he faced Rich, Matt, Norton, and Mike. He didn’t even give RM a chance to respond before pulling them out of there, the other two trailing behind them.

You looked up at Rob, just waiting for the next word to come out of his mouth.

“I’m sorry Rob, I didn’t mean for this to come out today, let alone at all.” You slid your phone back into your pocket, sitting down.

“Hey, hey it’s okay. Really.” said Rob, coming up and kneeling in front of you. He wrapped his arms around you and just held you for a minute, stroking your back in an attempt to calm you. He knew the stakes. He let you go, facing you still.

“If it’s alright, I really would like to hear it still.” Rob reached up; wiping a tear off your face that you didn’t even realize had fallen.

You sighed, not seeing much of a point to keep this to yourself any longer. You pulled out your phone again, pulling up the song as well.

“I’m, I’m gonna go back to our room for now. I’m done for the day so, I’ll see you at the concert?” you asked, softly.

Rob smiled, leaning up to kiss you.

“I love you.” said Rob, as you walked out. He sighed, sitting on the couch and pulling his headphones out of his pocket. Knowing you, the next few minutes were definitely going to change your relationship.  

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