To re-watch Free! or not to re-watch Free!??

You know, I had and I still have this HUGE... I don’t know how to define it.

I think I... NEVER WATCHED FREE! MORE THAN ONCE. XD

Maybe... just maybe, twice, but I don’t think so.

I watched 2 or 3 times the 1st season when I knew about the 2nd, I watched at least 10 times the moment when Haru stops in the middle of the pool and gets angry at Rin just to suffer more, and I watched like 5 times THAT 12th episode and 2 times the OAV.

But then... I could never bring myself to watch the whole series a second time. XD

It was my favourite one. Like, EVER. I probably wanted to keep in my heart all the emotions it gave me the first time I watched it. I still do. ♥ It’s like a strongbox I do not want to open again, a lover I don’t want to break up with despite not being sure if I still love it as before. I’m afraid of finding out it wasn’t as awesome as I remember it to be, of my headcanons being destroyed, of everything becoming... not special. But maybe it might look even better!! Who knows?? XD

Free! really gave me a lot, first of all my drawing style. I like it so much that I don’t want other anime/manga to influence it. It’s my treasure, my child. And every time a new anime appears, it changes, almost inevitably.

This year, an anime just as beautiful happened to us and... maybe it’s time to remember, to see if the only anime that completely stole my heart is still as beautiful as it was to me the first time. I was waiting for the day Free! wouldn’t be the only one for me anymore. Maybe the time has come. XD

...

God. I want to watch it but I don’t want to.

Instead I’ve already watched Yuri On Ice like 6 or 7 times and I want to watch it again.

UGH.

Sometimes I feel stupid, getting this sentimental for anime and not people. But to me these things are just as important. XD I literally fall in love with anime and manga. I have my ex-crushes too, like Shaman King. XD So yeah, this is a love crisis by all means. XDDD