I went to therapy to feel better about life choices.
Results so far: I concluded things that not only deleted completely my life choices, but left me with total stillness.
It was as if I took the last feelings I had left and threw them in the black hole where I threw all the others.
I don’t feel a thing. I don’t wish to do a thing.
I don’t even feel like drawing or watching Free!.
I just... don’t care.
I’m in a constant “whatever” mode.
And it sucks.
A lot.
SHOUT-OUT TO EVERYONE: please, DON’T DO THIS KIND OF THINGS (especially using tributes other people make or draw to display what they like).
No matter what fandom you are in. No matter who you ship. It’s valid even in REAL LIFE. Never compare your tastes to someone else’s. Not this way.
YOU LIKE WHAT YOU LIKE and NOTHING IS BETTER OR WORSE THAN ANYTHING ELSE.
A ship is just an opinion and a reflection of who you are and what you love. We all are different, so, be it a ship or your favourite food or music, remember that EVERYTHING IS AMAZING.
I hid the user’s name because I’m just taking the chance to talk about something that happens way too often and it makes me very sad. D:
So be thoughtful and considerate. Always. Thanks.
Lately I'm regretting not having understood how much I was capable of. I could have done ANYTHING I wanted and I did nothing. Time to redeem.
but probably I just wasn’t ready and now I am (maybe). someone just need more time than other people and I am/was/will be one of these “someone”.
I wish there was a codeword for “you sprung that plan on me too last-minute and I didn’t have enough time to mentally prepare myself” because I feel kinda bad when someone spontaneously invites me to do something and I’m just like no no no no I need wARNING I have to have enough time to build up my social energy
I feel this in every fiber of my being.
For anyone who has this problem, even just once... just GO. It's not that bad. And trust me, I know what's like to be scared of people. I AM AND I'VE ALWAYS BEEN. But that's why I decided I want to see if people are actually scary. And... incredibly, mostly aren't (at least most of my friends' friends... XD). The most of them will even like you, whether you believe it or not.
So... TRY. XD ♥
My father wants me to find a job where I can earn more.
It's a miracle itself, the fact that I have a job now. -,-""
Without a diploma, I can't ask for anything more.
Well... I guess I could work in a restaurant/pastry shop/ice cream shop, since I attended that kind of school, but...
I don't know. T^T
For now, I'm just trying to buy a car within this week. -,-"
