Realm of Possibilities

episode title mentions: season six

Sometimes there are no words, no clever quotes to neatly sum up what’s happened that day. Sometimes you do everything right, everything exactly right, and still you feel like you failed. Did it need to end that way? Could something have been done to prevent the tragedy in the first place? Eighty-nine murders at the pig farm. The deaths of Mason and Lucas Turner make ninety-one lives snuffed out. Kelly Shane will go home and try to recover, to reconnect with her family, but she’ll never be a child again. William Hightower, who gave his leg for his country, gave the rest of himself to avenge his sister’s murder. That makes ninety-three lives forever altered, not counting family and friends in the small town of Sarnia, Ontario, who thought that monsters didn’t exist until they learned that they spent their lives with one. And what about my team? How many more times will they be able to look into the abyss, how many times before they won’t ever recover the pieces of themselves that this job takes?  Like I said, sometimes there are no words, no clever quotes to neatly sum up what’s happened that day. Sometimes, the day just ends.

My name’s Spencer, and I’m a.. I don’t really know what I am. This is my first meeting. I guess I.. uh, I know I had a problem with Dilaudid, but, um, I stopped. Like 10 months ago, I stopped. I thought it was over. But recently, I’m.. I’ve really been.. your literature uses the term ‘craving’. It started a month ago. A suspect was murdered in front of me - a kid. And I thought I could save the kid, but I couldn’t, and.. sorry. I’m sorry. I’ve seen a lot of that stuff before but for some reason, that kid’s face is really stuck in my brain, you know? It’s really.. uh, I can’t.. And I.. I want to forget about him. And I just want to escape.

This pain is part of being human.