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You know that feeling in your chest when you’re reading something that has SO much emotion in it.. like you’re living through the character and their current emotion? That ball of love or pain or excitement or even fear? I find myself chasing that feeling. I love getting SO involved into a story that I FEEL those moments with the characters. I’m blown away when someone can write a story that can feel so REAL. Just awesome. Anyways.. I just feel sorry for anyone who doesn’t get involved into reading and get to experience that. Real life has so few mind blowing moments, not that I’m complaining- I put in my hard moments to get my happiness- but getting to experience more of those moments of extreme emotion through stories that take your mind away with them... just so awesome.

My favorite fics leave me with these reactions, brought to you by Mr J. Franco:

Woke up to a dark, rainy day. Should I skip adulting today and just stay in bed reading? YUP!

Do I start a new fic? Or go back to one I already have read (and likely already have re read because hi I have a problem lol)..... THE STRUG.

Who am I kidding I WILL DO BOTH!

Errr uhhh okthanksbye

Me: *finishes reading yet another amazing story that had taken over my life for the last 48 hours STRAIGHT* ...ok ok I need to stop and eat food, clean up a little, and eventually sleep. *scratches head* damn I’m feeling some Rush vibes heh OK SO ADULTING HERE I COME!

Also me: OOOOH LOOK ANOTHER THIRTY CHAPTERS FROM SAME WRITER OMG MUST START NOW..... fuck........ (ps I’m not even remotely mad at all bahaha)

BIG mood.

MUST... SLEEP.... CANT STOP.... READING..... ONE...... ONE MORE CHAPTER....... JUST...... NEED ONE MORE CHAPTER......

Today is my 11 year wedding anniversary and I got to spend the morning lounging in bed, reading my stories, and had no responsibilities. It has been GLORIOUS! No need for fancy gifts or flowers, the little things make it all so perfect!

My...... my heart..... I have never once in my life felt this heartbroken reading a story..... but omg...... I need to finish reading.... maybe it’s a happy ending...... I don’t see how but maybe...... I am shaking crying...... over a story..... a book...... fiction...... but I’ve been so wrapped up in it..... the characters...... my heart is skipping and my breath is shaking and all over a story..... I love how into it I am, but I swear to all that is holy if this doesn’t turn around and have a happy ending I don’t know if I will be ok 😅😭 SO HELP ME GODDESS ABOVE IF THIS DOES NOT END WELL I WILL SPEND MY EVENING WRITTING MY OWN HAPPY ENDING LMAO.... stay tuned..... might be back with my update.... assuming my heart isn’t shattered into a million pieces..... 😅😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I have the perfect songs that go along as I read, some songs sexy and perfect, some songs pull my heart as my reading does, and some songs make me want to fight. I love it. Music and Reading. Such bliss.