Starting Over

I haven’t been on here in like a year, been going through a lot of ups and downs (i’m sure no one is reading this but it makes me feel like i’m talking to someone haha) Moved out of a crappy situation that I was in, been living with my amazing boyfriend since January. Things have been going great in that department. 

Unfortunately I haven’t been very motivated in the whole health and wellness thing... thanks to the rona and gyms being closed, I didn’t have motivation to do anything and I was eating whatever I want. My gym has been open for a little over a week. I’ve been going pretty regularly. Although I still wasn’t eating that great. My birthday was Sunday, so in my mind I was like “it’s my birthday I can be fat if I want to.” But now i’ve come to a realization, I’m 27 years old and I’ve really done nothing with my life. I’m in a dead end job and I’m just about as insecure with my body as I was when I was 18. I’m going to start taking my nutrition and fitness more seriously. I’ve bought planners in the past that I never ended up using so I’m going to start tracking my calorie intake and workouts with that. I’d like to keep updated on here just to help keep me accountable. It would be nice to meet people on here that are also interested in the same thing. I don’t have many people in my real world that I can talk to. I have a hard time opening up about this stuff in person. I’ve touched on it with my boyfriend and he’s very supportive, I just feel like I’ve told him many times about “being serious about my diet” and I always end up falling off. So I kind of want it to be like a surprise for him, plus he deserves a hot girlfriend haha.

I’d also like to start venturing into new hobbies/interests. I don’t really do much in my spare time.. it’s honestly kind of depressing. lol But I think that will help with my mental stability. My end goal would be to be able to get out of the dead end job i’m in. I’m pretty content with what I’m doing now, but it’s certainly not what I want to be doing 10 years from now. So maybe this could help open doors for me elsewhere.

Anyway.. coming to an end of a rant. It feels really good to get off my chest! Not really sure how to end this so i’m just gonna stop here haha