WWIAO in 2020. It must be 6 or 7 years since I’ve posted something resembling a life update here. I thought some of you old-timers might appreciate an update. Every now and then I’ll hop on this account and feel endeared by all the traces of the friendships I had with people when I was active here.
So, I kinda just stopped coming on here without notice. From googling myself, I can see that people were wondering where I went off to. What happened is, someone had directed my parents to my tumblr. If you can believe it, this escalated into a total falling out with my parents. I was made to feel so ashamed for everything I was doing here -- and this was a big part of my life! I was more or less forced to remove my presence here. But when I did, I just felt so unbelievably exposed and judged.
Hey, I get it - I was making pretty E D G Y jokes. YEAH, I hosted tinychats where I would talk to hundreds of strangers all night. YEAH, I drank a bag of milk in the shower. YEAH, there was a sex appeal element and lord knows I was a minor. But I was also a young, immature gay kid with an audience of 100k + people who loved to make people laugh. This was quite a horrible time in my life where I was running away from home a lot, struggling with my gender, and hurting myself in a lot of ways and my tumblr life was extremely important to me and a huge part of my support system. This whole situation was quite terrible. My family really made me feel like what I was doing here was totally shameful and wrong -- I didn’t want to show my face anymore cuz I felt like I was a bad person.
But here I am -- alive and well. I have been up to so much these past years, folks -- lived all around the country. I am now living in Montreal where I am just about to finish a master’s degree. I’m genderfluid, but the lez energy is still going strong. To be honest, I’m obsessed that Jamjars and I are both trans. Lately, I’ve been wanting to get back into making movies, but I don’t know if I can top Barbie’s House.
Anyway, drop a line and say hi if you feel like it. I’m down to add old friends on instagram. Unfortunately, I’ve blacked a lot of my tumblr years. So, reply to this and say hi, maybe share a nice memory, or a way I’ve made you laugh. I don’t know, I just want to re-connect a bit I guess.
Love you guys.
