Um so .. I just thinking about caryl and their arcs and spin-off. I was thinking if Carol and Daryl arcs mean a lot to you and care about a lot of them with the kids and/or TF(or preferred how the story ends on twd show), then you could focus on s11 and hoping everyone's story ends well on the Twd show. Just focus on s11/final season.

And then have time to think about the Caryl spin-off show as a different thing/enty or expectations. Idk like you can just hope for Caryl being happy and the end in the show. That it's good in s11/twd series finale. Then you can either move on or keep watching/being invested in the spin-off with Caryl.

But like .. That's how it is right now.. Everyone's doing one step at a time, and focus on 10c, s11, and Caryl spin-off show. And like ofc if you don't like the story or the ending there's always fanfiction.

I know it sounds like a Debbie downer.. But idk how this spin-off goes for and Idk if I can handle caryl away from TF and feeling it's ooc. Or how spin-off goes like if its monster of the week episodes and not connecting with the grimes/TF/Rick. (Sounds boring and different tbh.) I'm hoping s11b/f would go well. And I'll just focus on 10c and s11 ending good for my faves right now. :)

Andrea opinion on the forum and Connie...

I think everyone said it all. I didn't like how even in s1 where women had to do the cleaning and the men hunt or guard. The show was already stereotypical on gender roles. Idk ...so it was jarring like in s2 Andrea wanting to learn to shoot like it was a bad thing(I feel realistically that would be true that anyone would want to learn to shoot right away in the real world/Apoc) but the writers make her dumb or in hard spot by messing up and almost shooting Daryl. And then she had sex with Shane, who fandom/comic fans are like that's a villain. Also ...the show doesn't do romance or sex a lot so..that's like a random sex scene there. It's all a mess what they did for Andrea. I guess a lot of hate or disappointment comes from comic fans venting and ranting. I'm glad ..by s3 everyone's at least learning survival things/killing walkers/shooting. I was tired of Andrea but was really upset and sad that she died in s3. It was like she coulda had been a good written character in end of s3.(Barely developed Michonn3 and Andrea's friendship) I was really annoyed with Mazzara but he left then. It's weird. I can't imagine tv -Rick and Andrea. lol Richonn3 developed and evolved naturally so well. Kinda OT....but it's kinda how I feel about Connie..on how I had high hopes on Connie but I'm already disappointed with how the writers did with her and on the sisters relationship. I want it to be MORE. I guess I'm picky. I'm like not interested in the idea of Connie anymore. I guess I meant that I want better writing.

Danai saving the show again and again. (She made the last Richonne scene the way it is.) It’s like the writers wanna throw themselves under the bus or just wanna point out how great Danai is.

 UGH This makes me nervous and doubtful about the show and movies. Danai knows ...really gets the point of the show’s point and characters’ relationships and make it meaningful. And the scene of Michonne trusting Virgil randomly but him saying mercy quote makes it a bit believable. 

If Michonne’s in the movies...maybe Danai could help them again...if she wants to.

TWD s10 ep 7, character death SPOILER,****Rant****

ahh man seriously wtf. The focus on Caryl from s9 to s10.

We get a new showrunner for s9 and we didn’t know what to expect and including timejumpS and changes. s9 is like they almost killed the Caryl ship but didn’t. s9 was in a way a subtle angst caryl thing. Then Carol is back in ASZ/the main storyline and broke up with E, which made Carylers hopeful. And now s10 is like whamo a bunch of Caryl(Carol and Daryl) scenes we don’t usually ever get in a season ...except s2. S10 feels like a Caryl season or a Caryl show.

after thoughts on 9x05 and movies

ok so i had some time to think about 9x05-Rick’s leaving and the 3 tv Rick movies. I can’t believe my AU fanpic is possible. lol I mean we got that helicopter hint. I still don’t know what to think and my mind is racing. 

So I feel mixed about Rick’s “ending”. I understand why some want Rick to die because of the episode being like series finale with so many callbacks and guest stars, and stuff! He would die from strong writing-wise. But I’m also glad Rick lives because it’s like it’s ok to watch TWD now, if I want to, and there’s a high chance that Rick’s story ends when TWD ends. And that Rick may get his happy ending. The hero finds his family and lives happily ever after, making Carl proud. I get the mix feels. It reminded me of TWDG where in s2 there’s a choice in the game to kill or leave Kenny for his ending of the story. In s3, there’s another part of his story (if you stay with Kenny through the year), he dies from a car accident. So there’s like these two Kenny-endings kinda close together but it’s like which ending is better for Kenny’s story..in your opinion? Either way, Kenny dies, ....I would chose the “ending” in s2, not s3. It’s was so emotional impactful and great scene. But it’s all stories too..there’s also that option as a fan to choose your ending or fanfiction your ending. So, it’s like me saying Kenny never dies and he’s still with Clementine and AJ. Anyways, so it’s hard to trust writers, I guess, to keep hoping for Rick’s story to end well. 

The 3 movies thing. I was disappointed with it but I realized. I don’t know much about it but I think the 3 movies doesn’t change anything to what we know already. We don’t know how Rick’s story ends now that he’s still living. We still have to keep hoping for the best from the writers to write a good Rick’s ending. Like I thought AL would do other things till the show’s finale but the movies are just added parts to this idea. It’s like yay more Rick. But who knows what the writers will do and I think AL still can do other projects too.  I think the movies are one per year as the show keeps going till the series finale will be the last movie as Richonne reunites or Rick/Richonne appears in finale ep. ...OMG I just realized there’s something about three years. NR and MMB signed for 3 years deal to do the show and got the pay (if the show ends earlier or something they still get the pay.) There’s a three Rick-movies thing. So yeah I think there’s one movie per year till the third year. That third year might be when the series end. Season 12. However, it’s really early to speculate on these movies because I think I think it’s not set in stone yet. If they start filming, I’m guessing it’s in March.

The Rick-less episodes of TWD it’s weird to think of it. It’s not really based on the comics anymore. It’s like a spinoff. There’s no Grimes boys in the show. The show used to be kinda close to the comics and now it’s bit more different. The show is kinda going with the comics but they’re using different characters and changing the plots a bit. I think the only thing that feels close to the comics rn is the Michonne searching and *finding her daughter Elodie. Or it’s something that I look forward to. It feels like now there’s TWD-”spinoff” show and TWD (true..show) movies with Rick. There’s two things now. Well I see TWD as Rick’s story. So it’s like TWD became 3 movies(mini-series?) and the show is a spinoff. But eh even that Rick going missing or whatever isn’t part from the comics. Anyways I feel that tv-TWD true story is wherever Rick is at.

So, I know I’m burnt out from AMC trolling and pr like omg this year was so crazy for the (any) fandom ever. Like damn, AMC’s baby is TWD, this lil cable show has a huge fandom and franchise. Everything is huge and everywhere in promotion, compared to another drama show. (LC didn’t get a nice goodbye promo sheesh. AMC is practically spoiling everything.) So I feel like Idk what’s to take seriously with TWD/AMC. Idk when is the endgame or how much they care for it. I kinda think ..you guys don’t need spoilers, AMC will tell ya anyway. 

 Idk what I think of TWD now. I still care about TWD story (kinda..well Rick’s still alive. Caryl and some parts being interesting. Idk about emo/mom!Michonne :( ) I know this show isn’t top show to watch. It’s fun for me, whatever. So, I feel like s7 was my final ending of the story. I feel like s1-4 was top TWD story writing. The rest is whatever..I guess pick some part to watch/follow for and go with flow till the ending. What I’m saying there’s ofc flaws with this show. I didn’t like s8 finale. Time jump was blah and then this major time jump seems so dumb. 6 years wtf. Team family were together without Rick longer than with Rick. ehh. It seems offensive right after Rick’s departure...but he still lives. I really think they did the six year time jump because to age up Henry (Carl 2.0) which is dumb. 

Anyways, I guess what I look forward to with TWD and the 3 movies is the main characters of s9. Caryl, how Richonne reunites,(maybe plus Maggie) and the kids doing stuff and thangs. I hope TWD ends well but I got “backup endings” anyway. We just have to wait longer for the ending. 

I’m speculating on with Danai’s choice, is that Michonne and Judith (and Richonne Jr?) could always decide to leave ASZ to search for Rick in the show and movies. So, Danai can still do other projects if she wants to. Idk but I would love the 3 movies(is it really three about Rick? lol) to be some angsty love story about Richonne. 💖 omg love story. #shippy.

 But who knows.

-why i didn’t quit before / team family /s9-caryl

-big twd filming spoilers, 9x05?

-carick

-au

My thoughts so far.  vvv

ehh im gonna miss carol, carick, caryl, grimes boys, richonne, team family. 

sigh it’s hard when potenial gets wasted. it sucks that amc/writers didn’t just wrap up the show like in a good written ending. :[

so now I think during the hiatus it’s gonna be like ..”just wait and see” on the lil hope that things will end Rick’s story fine, canon-wise. And for Richonne and Caryl.

It’s kind of like OUAT or sw: tlj. ..ish. Like yeah I can just say s8 was the series finale. That’s the ending. And everyone’s happy after the war. Caryl and Richonne are neighbors. The end. 

I could also wait and see & hope if s9 msf will be like series finale-happy ending.

But there’s still a BIG chance of feeling duped and disappointment if it didn’t go that way. Most likely it won’t go my way. But I probably won’t feel sad/disappointment/duped that like I am right now. Like I already have less faith in writers anyway.. ok. ehh still gonna hurt.

I’m waiting to see how s9 msf will go by looking at filming/spoilers. Waiting to see if Danai will leave or not after s9A. Because like I can’t/don’t want to see Michonne losing people she loves again and again. 

And if s9b is like a spin-off show way.. that I feel it’s different than TWD, then there I hope there’s still good writing there..like consistency, parallels, more team family still. Then I hope/wait to see if  Caryl goes canon too or some interesting Caryl slow burn romance story. I don’t mind if it’s like some Caryl spin off show. I’ve read a few comments that some saying maybe they be like comic-R and M. Best friends that eventually be canon/endgame. That would be cool. (since I read the comics and like to speculate with the show...) And if Michonne is still living then I hope she does some other character arc/journey. idk, Be best friends with Carol. Stay close together raising Judith and Enid. (idk about Maggie/LC) BUT, there I feel doubtful on what the writers will do with Daryl and the Caryl ship. It’s a lot to take in and hope for. I mean like whatever s8 ended with TF winning the war, Caryl and Richonne living their best lives. I guess I’m more story than ship. 

*wtf i can’t believe Caryl are the last Atlanta two (and quickly), canon-wise. They won the Hunger Games. (that is if Rick dies, blah)

So it’s hard to like detach from the show. It’s a huge change (and fast too :\). It’s like 10 years watching this show and being with the fandom. (idk what it would be like if no Big Brother no more heh. whatever. Always some other new show to forward to). Like with OUAT it was easy for me to decide to quit when. I knew my final straw was, I guess. It was hard to deal with. I just ignore the show and media. Until I feel like I don’t know those characters and this different story arcs anymore. They became different to me. I pinpoint where my ending is canon-wise or ..my idea. Because really stories are stories. You can change it up.

 I appreciate the good times of the fandom and the show.  rn it just hurts. Disappointment feels.

sigh i keep having my hopes up.. but this long crazy summer hiatus, I will eventually know more and maybe know more on to quit or not before s9 starts.