unfortunately i woke up with more brother thoughts so
okay. i think that sam has every right to start these conversations. i think he has every right to point out to dean how unhealthy their shit has gotten. sam is not wrong. the gadreel thing was ten flavors of skeevy and dean knows it, dean has known that all along and he did it anyway. out of selfless love and yes, out of selfishness too, out of a need to keep one of the only things he’s ever been able to hang onto. love and selfishness are not mutually exclusive things. most people don’t love with total selflessness, most people can’t. we want to be loved in return, we want to be given attention and some kind of validation that we are in this together. it is okay to want these things.
and in turn it is okay for sam to draw the line and say, i can give you some things but not all of them, dean, i can’t be the source of your self-worth, i can’t continue to be the piece of driftwood you cling to in the wreckage. i am not driftwood, i am a man with his own decisions to make. all of this is fair to say.
but i draw the line at what happened in the church.