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"If you are talking about the horrible future. I am sure we will be able to stop that from happening again." Tsuna answered, with his friends and Hibari around he was sure it wouldn't happen again and the future is definitely changing. He wonder if the future could be different then what they are seeing would he still be working together with Hibari ten years from now?

"But no matter how the future might change... I still hope we get the chance to work together Hibari."

He always knew Sawada was a soft heart, and honestly it made Hibari proud to work with him even if he always thought the kid was a coward and a herbivore. If that future was any indication of their bond, Hibari already understood Sawada trusted him a lot. And honestly the feeling was mutual, he trusted Sawada Tsunayoshi with his life and always would.

"I doubt that." Hibari wasn't being cruel, but just honest. He couldn't say what the future actually would hold for them or if they'd even be in each other's lives in another ten years. "But I hope for it as well."

He was leaning against the wall, the feeling of the soft and fluffy wall throwing him off a bit, sitting down against it. Mukuro said something about Hibari? But his body actually started to feel too hot and warm, as he was burning up. The constancy of Mukuro's illusions and flames seemed to set something inside of his body.

Hayato knew exactly that he was having a high fever and worse yet, every time Mukuro tried to contact it seemed to worsen his condition which made him wince and yell in pain, thus why now he was once again in the white room.

If he heard correctly then Hibari was in his way, throwing up as he once again wince. There wasn't a lot to throw up other than milk and rice so that was...

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Once he had the location, Hibari was on his way and nothing was going to stop him from reaching Gokudera. He owed Mukuro big time for finding him safely physically. Now it was up to Hibari to deal with the mental safety.

Sensory deprivation was hell to come back from if given in high doses and white room torture was an even more extreme version of it often used to punish prisoners of war. He would have been surprised that Gokudera wasn't completely broken yet, but then he remembered he was the tenth Storm for a reason.

He spoke softly as he understood that sudden introduction of sound after months of auditory deprivation could cause him to essentially lose his hearing. Months of auditory deprivation could cause his brain to no longer be capable of processing sound at all leading to social withdrawal, cognitive decline, difficulty understanding speech and language as well as brain atrophy. He had to make sure Gokudera wasn't deaf as it was. "Gokudera, can you hear me?"

Did Hayato actually understand what happened? No. But one thing he knew for sure he felt hands. He felt hands trailing his ass and squeezing it. Was it reality or just a disassociation? He wouldn't know but he felt it. And it was enough to make him start to depersonalize.

Before anything could get worse he just asked for Kyoya's help, it would make the older angry but sure it was better than letting him fall into a hole.

Sorry... I i ... I started feeling hands touching me... And then I.... Sorry... He bit his lower lips. Trying not to overthink. I just... hold me... please?

Now he was pissed. However, he understood in the moment anger was the last emotion he needed to express to Gokudera. He wasn't going to make matters worse and didn't want to frighten him when the trauma of whatever he'd been through was already enough to do that and more.

"Of course, love. We can talk when you're ready." Hibari wasn't going to push the subject. He already knew it was bad if Gokudera used their code word.

"Just relax. I'm here now. No one's going to hurt you again. They have to get through me first."

@whiskeysmulti :: continued from here

She stared straight into Hibari’s orbs.

“It’s well within your rights to believe she should remain pure.  However, it's well within her rights to have the knowledge of intercourse so that she isn’t taken advantage of.  You are her guardian.  You need to do your due diligence,” Sarina narrowed her eyes at Hibari.  “Both yourself and her know you are both family.  You must protect one another, and to do that is to inform her.  Therefore, she can make the right choice for her best interest.  That is what it means to be a parent.  To nurture, to teach, to inform, and to support.”

She searched her pupil’s eyes for any trace of recognition or outrage.

“She will ask everyone now because you wussed out, Hibari-kun.”

He sighed heavily. There was one thing he could say about training under Sarina when he was younger, she was a bitch and always would be. Honestly he felt like a husband who just cussed in front of their child and his wife overheard it, the way she was scolding him. But he hated to admit she had a point. Roll didn't deserve to be left in the dark like this even if he wanted to protect her innocence, he couldn't keep her in the dark forever. And Sarina was also right that she had a right to hear it from him.

"How do you explain sex to a box weapon though?" Should he get medical text books out? Should he just open the laptop and show her gay porn? Would Roll even understand then? this was more of a mess than he'd expected.

She was waiting for him, and even after turning a human, she would still follow and be around, too worried to not be there and he needed her power or something, and about what would happen. So when she found him and watched him up and down to calm her worries something caught her attention, making the weapon box look straight to his neck.

The question about her sleep is already forgotten as her face goes pale and she stops in front of him, chewing on her lower lips. Did the owner get in a fight? Did you get hurt because I wasn't there? Is the owner okay? Are you sure about it? I mean, I know you are standing and walking so I think you are okay but Tsuna-san said that you have a high pain tolerance and that sometimes you are more hurt than you show and... Was it my fault for not being there that the owner got hurt?

She talks all of that without breathing and looks very anxious at him, also why call him owner and not Hibari-san like he asked. If it was her fault she would never, ever forgive herself.

Well fuck. She actually did see it. He made a mental note to remind Gokudera to spare his neck. Even in the suit the high collar didn't come up high enough to cover a hickey.

He didn't want to have to explain sex to her just yet, until he remembered the threats Sarina gave him if he didn't come clean and left Roll naive. He'd trained under her once, that was more than enough to cure him of the Varia guardian's spartan ways. "Roll, calm down." He needed her to listen. "This isn't an injury. It is from a bite mark, but I'm not hurt." How in the hell do you tell a box weapon that you're a sadomasochist and your boyfriend knows it? This was going to be a long talk.

Sure that Yamamoto thought everyone was just being... nice. Because who would want to date someone like him? Like everyone said he was him, just a Baseball Brain who was best friends with Tsuna, and Gokudera nothing else. So who could flirt with him? More importantly, maybe he was wrong about the Cloud.

Sorry Hibari. It's just... You seem pissed. Considering that Yamamoto got to see how often the other were annoyed, he just thought that for some reason the Cloud had a reason to be flirting with him but again... That was impossible. First, it's Hibari, who only loves Namimori School and fights, or nap. Second, it's Yamamoto, again, who would want to date him?

He didn't want to have to confess to Yamamoto that he'd admired him from afar, and honestly he wasn't angry at all just nervous. He liked the Rain more than he cared to admit, the guy had grown on him for quite some time now but Hibari was stubborn and just kept brushing it off that it was admiration and there was no way in hell he liked another guy.

"I'm not angry." He sighed. He never wanted to make Yamamoto uncomfortable, and sadly that was just what he'd done. The best thing he could do now was what he always did. Be honest, even if it was harsh and cold. "I'm nervous."

Watching Hibari getting there and taking the captors made her smile gently towards him, although she was a bit beaten, it wasn't bad considering the rest. She had tried to fight as much as she could, but she wasn't good in melee combat so it was easy to lose.

Hearing him made her slightly confused as she tilted her head to the said. In what way? More than her parents did emotionally to her? No. More than the car accident she had in the past? No. Nothing that happened to her now was enough to hurt her. Although one would say that the cuts and beaten she received were considered hurt.

This wasn't the way he'd hoped to find her. Chrome had been...special to him even if he didn't say it well he tried to express it by protecting her at any cost even if he could barely tolerate the male half of the Mist guardian duo, he'd always been fond of Chrome. Seeing her in this bad shape broke his heart, though he wouldn't show it, too proud and too tough to express it, though it hurt the pain was overshadowed by his seething internal rage. Whoever did this to her was about to pay in blood. "In whatever way you're willing to talk about." He wasn't going to interrogate her about her feelings. If she didn't want to discuss it, she didn't have to, because there was a much more important discussion they needed to have. "Who did this to you anyway?" Hibari wanted names, and he wanted them immediately.

Blank eyes, it was almost like her body walked there by itself, Chrome was lost, not only physically since she was far away from her house, but also mentally. She wasn't there, her mind wasn't there.

Her lips moved slightly: "Help", but no sound left her lips. As the Mist girl's legs give up in front of the other, her face doesn't change. Whatever illusion she was or wasn't seeing, was messing with her mind and she couldn't free herself.

Normally Hibari would have panicked had he not seen this happen to her before. It was from exhaustion. He didn't know much about illusions, but he knew Chrome often poured nearly all her energy into them when she had to. It didn't alarm him to see her suddenly collapse. However, what she mouthed to him did. "What's wrong, Chrome? Did something happen?"

Hayato was confused, he was trying to learn the best way to approach people in a sensual way that didn't look so submissive, something that the Storm completely lose his head if he did. He knows there is a long way to healing. But that was a start, Hibari was the one helping so much along the way and making a really really good company.

He wasn't sure when he started to feel like there was something more between him and the Cloud but, was that alright? Was that even good? Or right? Get involved with another guardian... He would thought that for someone who made that mistake once, he wouldn't think of the possibility of even doing it the second time.

Could he even trust the Cloud? No... Could he trust himself again? He barely learned how to love himself again... Could he... There were so many, many questions going through his head right now.

Feeling the kiss made him close his eyes as he felt Hibari's hand over his chest. His words next made him... Sad? No... There was something else in this, that he couldn't put exactly what. As he froze there, date forgotten, the storm soon completely froze in the place.

Hibari wasn't a man to get involved in something with half his heart. His mind had already been made up when he started seeing Gokudera. He already understood the consequences that could come from getting involved with someone of such a high rank who was also a fellow guardian, but he was ready to take the fall for that, even if it meant Tsuna would discharge him and he'd be out of the Mafia for good. He had nothing to lose and everything to gain from this. However, he also understood that as the second in command, Gokudera was risking everything. Hibari couldn't blame him if this didn't work out, homosexuality wasn't exactly accepted in the Mafia. However, he knew the little herbivore boss of theirs didn't give a shit about Mafia law and traditions and was only involved in this to protect his friends anyway. Really he left it to Gokudera in the end if they became anything more than whatever the hell this was between them right now. Did he have feelings for the Storm guardian? Yes. Did Hibari understand what they were? Not yet. But he knew he wasn't going into this blindly or with half his heart. He was ready to risk it all, and wasn't going to be screwed around. He pulled away from the kiss and looked Gokudera dead in the eyes. This was all or nothing now.

"Does she make you feel like this? Or should I leave now while I still have the chance?" Hibari was done with the back and forth games.

He couldn't help, the tears kept flowing and flowing, he felt so safe, so...

The "Kuu" called his attention as he slowly blinked his eyes and moved from the door to open it, that wasn't what he was expecting. As he took the small animal the tears flowed hard.

He felt so loved. His hand shaking as he gently took the tray and so letting it close to him, his hand going back to the animal box and petting her head. As the tears rolled from his eyes, he couldn't stop as the emotions flowed.

It was good he was already on the floor as he wouldn't fall as the heavy emotions slowly left him.

He'd finished putting things away and slowly made his way upstairs, his own tray in hand. He'd hoped Roll could calm Gokudera down. The last thing Hibari wanted was for him to be afraid of being with him or feeling unsafe there. Animals were cute and could be therapeutic. He hoped Gokudera liked Roll. She was genuinely just a small, shy animal that had her own way of surviving and showing affection and love and that was what he wanted to show Gokudera the most of right now. Carrying his food upstairs, he knocked softly at the door and smiled. "Did the room service arrive yet?" He teased. "I thought you might like to enjoy breakfast together, and I brought tea."

Tsuna could feel the overwhelming aura from Hibari. He move swiftly towards Hibari raise his fist to strike in order to knock Hibari out.

Hibari quickly raised a tonfa to block the strike. "That's it, show me the you that caught my attention years ago, Sawada Tsunayoshi."