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I’m generally pretty private on here, but the last few days really got me to thinking and I just wanted to get a few things off my chest.
A few years ago I was diagnosed with a condition that slowly started to worsen, leading up to a rupture in my intestinal wall that landed me in intensive care with septic shock and organ failure last December. I’m blessed to be one of the lucky ones that got to go home with my life, but the road to recovery has been long, unpredictable, and a little scary, to say the least.
Since December I’ve been in and out of the hospital for various check-ups, complications, and everything in-between, but my most recent stay also happened to overlap with a milestone birthday for me. That day one of the nurses (bless her heart) asked me if I wanted her to read any messages from my phone in case there were any special texts or anything, and she happened to see a bunch of Discord notifications (yay, Sorato server!). At first she didn’t understand those weren’t personal messages to me (“you’re so popular!” 😂), so I ended up explaining to her a little about Discord and the Sorato server and then Tumblr and the Digimon and Sorato fandoms and at the end of it all, it just kinda hit differently that you guys really hold a special place in my heart. Like I knew you all meant a lot to me, but there was a small voice that kept telling me I would hate it if I left this earth without telling you guys how much your friendship, your posts, your creativity, and your general amazingness has meant to me. You’ve gotten me through dark times, kept me in high spirits when I needed it most, and ultimately made me feel like I’d always have a special place in this world where I belonged, and to everyone who I’ve interacted with here on Tumblr, whether only once or a thousand times, just know that I love you dearly and I am thankful that our paths have crossed.