Actually I changed my mind, my parents are doing it right: living in denial is way more fun and, generally speaking, sanity is for losers who want to be sad.
#I’m done being disillusioned now#illusion me up baby#Alice in wonderland let’s go#I miss not knowing how depraved things were#and I miss when I didn’t feel the cracks and tendrils of pain creeping in all around the edges of my psyche#like I know I’m not going crazy but that’s sort of the problem#therapy is way too hard and sanity is way too hard and taking meds and taking care of myself and keeping on living even with all the grief#and all the Knowing is just#enough#like enough already#this is#like#idk#give me whatever makes it stop again bro#ugh#guess I’ll fuckin TAKE MY MEDS AND GO TO BED SO I CAN WORK TOMORROW AND FUNCTION JESUS CHRISTMAS