I hate when people say that a character's death means nothing if they are resurrected. It meant something. It almost always means something.

Just because it isn't permanent doesn't mean that at the time it wasn't a great sacrifice.

I just don't really see why it wouldn't have the same value. Died for a family member but was brought back to life by that family member? That death still meant something

Died by accident and brought back because a god wasn't done with this patron? Still meant something

I've had several people tell me that if death isn't permanent, it isn't worth anything and I just don't get it.

Story time

Ok so I thought this would be kinda funny to share because I feel like I'm the only one who's had this experience, but you know how you can get very intense bout of certain emotions for certain situations but its not exactly real?

Well for me it happened in a fandom context, I was at a very low point in my life and I was following this fan work that was a self insert and the character was female (it wasn't fantastic because I am trans but I bared with it because the story was amazing) but i was so engaged in the story and my feelings around it I actually believed the story was happening and had happened to me. The most notable and most concerning detail was that I truly believe I was pregnant and had lost the baby during an accident.

That was nuts!

I have never had any desire to have kids, I am trans, I hate my uterus and again I've never wanted kids. But I was so overcome with emotions that I cried myself to sleep that night, sobbing over this supposed child I had lost. What kinda of psychosis was this?! This happened to me only twice and this was the more intense version but that is a crazy experience, right? like I understand how unhealthy that sounds, but I am aware of what drove me to that state. I was very severely depressed. Thinking back on that now just makes me wonder what the hell happened to me in my childhood to make me cling to something so desperate and out of this world.

The other event was believing that two characters from a tv show were my brothers and that I had been sent to this universe though a spell and the reason I was pulled to their show was because I knew who they were but couldn't fully remember my life with them. That is also slightly insane.

Now I believe that each piece of media we consume happened and exists in an alternatue universe and in one version of that alternate universe you exists as a character within their story as well.

Anyway, that my TEDTalk for the day

✮ Wayward || He/Him || They/Them || Ze/Zyr || Trans || Creator ✮

Welcome to my main blog! This is where I post anything and everything related to my fandoms and hyper-fixations. You'll be able to see where I'm at based on my header and icon for this blog. Right now, it's anythijg X Men and Marvel in general and will be into the near future. So have fun drowning in that content 👍

General info about me

| Punk | Writer | Artists | Possibly neurodivergent | Gay AF |

My fandoms: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, How to Train your Dragon, The Last of Us, Supernatural, Avatar 1/Avatar The Way of Water, Star wars: Rebles, Star Wars: The Clone Wars, Star Wars: The Bad Batch, My Hero Academia, Marvel

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Thank you so so much for the art. It's beautiful, Sam is definitely tall enough to be a Christmas tree. You are very talented thank you so so much. Merry Christmas, Happy Proclamation Day, And Happy New Year. Love long and prosper 🖖

Guess who's wearing his new Doc Martens with his new 1987 teenage mutant ninja turtle socks?!

This guy right here

I don't even care if it looks goofy, I'll be wearing my crust pants with them anyway I just couldn't be bothered right now. Love them so much.

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I also got Donnie and Mikey to accompany my Raph plushie (Leo will be along soon) as well as a LINKIN PARK HYBRID THEORY RECORD!!!! AAAA and my supernatural calendar. It's all the cool promotional photos from over the years. Can't wait to put it up on the first

Reply or reblog with your Christmas presents this year!

All my Ao3 Fics so far

Fandom: Marvel

Fandom: Supernatural

Fandom: My hero academia

Fandom: How to Train your Dragon

Disney

I’ve slowly realised that you can have more than one fandom that you are in/attached to/ involved with. Im genuinely flabbergasted by my brains stupidity. Yet here I am. So now that I’ve accumulated lots of fandoms I’ve been trying to figure out where I fit with all my favourite characters: how I feel about them, how I relate to them, why I like them. And so far I’ve manage to categorise them in two ways. 1) Kin, Simp or Stan and BFF, Sibling or Partner. I’m sure the cross over in some ways but whatever.

For the K,S,S the list is as follows

Kin:

- Castiel Winchester

- Peter Parker

- Loki Laufeyson

- Ezra Bridger

- Dean Winchester

- Sam Winchester

- Leonardo

- Raphael

- Donatello

- Michaelangelo

- Miles morales

- Jack Winchester

Simp:

- Crowley

- Aziripahle

Stan:

- Bakugo Katsuki

- Ejirou Kirishima

- Dabi Todoroki

- Keigo Takami

- Tomoura Shiggaraki

- Bucky Barnes

And for the B,S,P

BFF:

- Castiel Winchester

- Peter Parker

- Loki Laufeyson

- Ezra Bridger

- Miles Morales

Siblings:

- Dean Winchester

- Sam Winchester

- Leonardo

- Michaelangelo

- Donatello

- Raphael

Partners:

- Bakugo Katsuki

- Ejirou Kirishima

- Dabi Todoroki

- Keigo Takami

- Tomora Shiggaraki

- Bucky Barnes

And because I don’t know how the fuck I feel about these two they get a category all of their own

Whatever these two are to me:

- Crowley

- Aziriphale

My main comfort characters at the moment are: Dean, Sam, Cass and the TMNT

Idk what the point of this was I just felt like sharing. So there…shared

I drew this for Castiel’s birthday so you may have already seen it but this is a grace!steve. I got bored and just wanted to doodle my favourite angel. So here we are.

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Do not copy

Do no repost

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