Summary: Logan and you are making slow progress in this new found connection. It's good and all you want is to be near him.
Word Count: 800+
Tags: Fluff, comfort, emotional hurt/comfort, Logan is a softie, reader is even softer, talks of suicide but no suicide actually occurs
After your first date you and Logan kept things simple. And on the down low. Neither of you were exactly ready to take what was going on between you any further.
Don't get it twisted thought, both of you definitely had very strong feelings for each other, but it was too soon to make anything official. And the two of the shared that notion.
So, you kept things quiet, and you kept them private. Trying to stay unassuming. Although you couldn't deny that even your platonic relationship had changed and become noticeable to others.
You would still see him in class, but rather than dropping his coffee and leaving like you used to, you stayed for a while. Sitting on one of the cabinets by his desk or even on his desk in front of him during his breaks. Leaving before the children filed in but staying long enough for the two of you to chat. Sometimes you left, giving him a chaste kiss as you went.
Other times he would find you out in the gardens like he had the first night, joining you as you studied the orchids. Committing the view to memory even in the dim light. Moments like those were important to you after spending too many years locked up in a white and grey cell.
Logan would join you, his elbows touching yours as you rested on the fence dividing the properties. But after a while, he began slipping an arm over your shoulder, or even your waist and holding you beside him. It was gentle, his intentions clearly comforting.
And you enjoyed his attempt at getting close to you, it was nice. You only wished you had the guts to make a real move yourself.
And one night you did. You had attempted to actually sleep for once, but as usual sleep never came. But instead of sneaking out into the gardens to walk around in the crisp night air, you made your way to Logan's room.
At first you faltered, thinking this was a bad idea. You wanted to turn away, but you also wanted to knock and just be with him.
Before you could make either decision the door swung open, Logan standing in a white tank top that hung off his frame and blue boxer shorts.
You felt blush creep up your cheeks, had you been that noisy walking down the hall?
He also looked slightly embarrassed himself, there was a trace of eagerness in the way he was looking at you as you stood in his doorway.
"Sorry, did I wake you?" You ask
"Nah-" he replied "-I wasn't asleep...but I smelt ya outside. Was worried something was wrong"
You swallowed at the idea that Logan was so attuned to your scent, but you tried to not let that get to your head.
"Everything alright?" he asked
"Yeah...just, needed some company"
Logan stepped out of the doorway and gestured for you to come inside.
You walked in but now that you were here you felt awkward, you hadn't ever been in another person's dorm room and certainly not Logan's. You stood there, unsure of what to do next
Logan stood there as well, but he was the bigger man out of the two of you and as usual was the one to make the first move. He stepped closer to you and cupped your face in his hand, sighing.
"You sure everything is alright?" he asks again
This time you don't respond. He gets the idea.
He takes his other hand and holds yours with it, and slowly begins to walk backwards and pulls you with him until he sits down on the bed, and you fall down beside him. Your hands still connected.
"I just...-" you try to say something, anything but words fail you. Like usual
You hated to sleep, even when you tried it was hard and when you did all you could hear were the memories of nightmares, the ones you had actually lived. That moment in your school, your time in the MRDA holding facility. The echoing screams of you and your fellow prisoners as the MRDA conducted experiments testing the limits of your mutations. You wanted it all to go away. You wanted to blow your own head off in hopes that the nightmares would stop. But you wouldn't die, and you didn't think that death would grant you such a mercy.
"-I just need you to hold me" you say instead. Like a coward, because you can't face up to the fact that Logan might care about you and genuinely want to know about what haunted you. So, you bury those feelings for a little while longer, shoving them away to be replaced with the warmth of Logan.
He shuffles over to lie down in the bed and pulls you with him. You sink down into the sheets, resting your head on his chest as he tucks his arm under you and pulls you close to him. Holding you tight.
The fuzz on his arms tickles the back of your neck as he rests it just above the neckline of your shirt.
All of him is so comforting and nice. And... exactly what you've been missing. The cold darkness of your past seemed to ebb away with the warmth that emanated from Logan, and not just the physical warmth but his presence was so soothing. The care he showed you, the compassion, the empathy despite your own coldness in the beginning.
You snuggled into Logan further trying to soak up his warmth. To absorb as much of it as you can, for the fear that as soon as he left you would never be able to feel this warmth again. To feel his warmth.
Your eyes began to grow heavy as you listen to his deep breathing. The sound lulled you into a tranquil calm that you hadn't felt in a long time.
As you drifted off you felt Logan move a hand to brush some stray hairs away from your cheek. He lent down and kissed you softly on the top of the head.
He whispered something you only just caught before the darkness overtook you, and you were sure he only said it because he thought you were asleep. But it made your inside warm up in a way that made you feel like you were glowing.
"Goodnight, my little fighter"
Sorry this chapter is a bit shorter than the others but its a filler chapter. The next chapter will be a lot more fun tho
Also keep in mind this is a fic on my Ao3, so if you wouldn't mind checking me out and giving me some support there as well that would be greatly appreciated