Story time
Ok so I thought this would be kinda funny to share because I feel like I'm the only one who's had this experience, but you know how you can get very intense bout of certain emotions for certain situations but its not exactly real?
Well for me it happened in a fandom context, I was at a very low point in my life and I was following this fan work that was a self insert and the character was female (it wasn't fantastic because I am trans but I bared with it because the story was amazing) but i was so engaged in the story and my feelings around it I actually believed the story was happening and had happened to me. The most notable and most concerning detail was that I truly believe I was pregnant and had lost the baby during an accident.
I have never had any desire to have kids, I am trans, I hate my uterus and again I've never wanted kids. But I was so overcome with emotions that I cried myself to sleep that night, sobbing over this supposed child I had lost. What kinda of psychosis was this?! This happened to me only twice and this was the more intense version but that is a crazy experience, right? like I understand how unhealthy that sounds, but I am aware of what drove me to that state. I was very severely depressed. Thinking back on that now just makes me wonder what the hell happened to me in my childhood to make me cling to something so desperate and out of this world.
The other event was believing that two characters from a tv show were my brothers and that I had been sent to this universe though a spell and the reason I was pulled to their show was because I knew who they were but couldn't fully remember my life with them. That is also slightly insane.
Now I believe that each piece of media we consume happened and exists in an alternatue universe and in one version of that alternate universe you exists as a character within their story as well.
Anyway, that my TEDTalk for the day