Tfw you think you're secretly romantic, imagining scenes of holding hands, hand-kissing, and forehead kisses and soul gazing with a quiet deep understanding and wholehearted acceptance of who you are and each other.
But also shying uncomfortably away from imagining it with a real person, uncomprehending of the notions of being "in love", love at first sight, or the apparent expectation of tragic angst and heartbreak resulting from unrequited love. Which is why I often avoid the tag, it seems so painful but at the same time- can't relate.
Having been in love and genuinely attracted to someone that one time was confusing and a bit anxiety-inducing, yes. But I was also accepting of the fact that they'll never see me that way and just be genuinely content with being their friend as they gush over their romantic adventures and me not loving them any less.
Just the want to continue to have that closeness with them being enough.