Do I contradict myself? Very well then I contradict myself, (I am large, I contain multitudes.)
-Walt Whitman, Song of Myself, 51
For @mdzsnet’s Nie Mingjue Birthday Event!
@watch-grok-brainrot / watch-grok-brainrot.tumblr.com
Do I contradict myself? Very well then I contradict myself, (I am large, I contain multitudes.)
-Walt Whitman, Song of Myself, 51
For @mdzsnet’s Nie Mingjue Birthday Event!
For @fytheuntamed ‘s Untamed Fall Fest. Day 26: Remains
So I was 100% inspired by @needtherapy‘s those who remain sets. She does a really cool job of showing before an after of characters in the show. And it’s heartbreaking and beautiful! Go check her out!
I went the route of the people left behind. Ooof. this is heavy… but death is heavy so appropriate.
the last gif I originally made to go with the LXC set i did but it also didn’t fit… so repurposing! HA! I am so pleased i am able to recycle my effort. lol.
Also, trying out my tiny watermark. I really like the haoppopotamus… >.> maybe too much so. one big midwest OPE.
For @fytheuntamed ‘s Untamed Fall Fest. Day 26: Remains
So I was 100% inspired by @needtherapy‘s those who remain sets. She does a really cool job of showing before an after of characters in the show. And it’s heartbreaking and beautiful! Go check her out!
I went the route of the people left behind. Ooof. this is heavy… but death is heavy so appropriate.
the last gif I originally made to go with the LXC set i did but it also didn’t fit… so repurposing! HA! I am so pleased i am able to recycle my effort. lol.
Also, trying out my tiny watermark. I really like the haoppopotamus… >.> maybe too much so. one big midwest OPE.
For @fytheuntamed ‘s Untamed Fall Fest. Day 26: Remains
So I was 100% inspired by @needtherapy‘s those who remain sets. She does a really cool job of showing before an after of characters in the show. And it’s heartbreaking and beautiful! Go check her out!
I went the route of the people left behind. Ooof. this is heavy… but death is heavy so appropriate.
the last gif I originally made to go with the LXC set i did but it also didn’t fit… so repurposing! HA! I am so pleased i am able to recycle my effort. lol.
Also, trying out my tiny watermark. I really like the haoppopotamus… >.> maybe too much so. one big midwest OPE.
For @fytheuntamed ‘s Untamed Fall Fest. Day 26: Remains
So I was 100% inspired by @needtherapy‘s those who remain sets. She does a really cool job of showing before an after of characters in the show. And it’s heartbreaking and beautiful! Go check her out!
I went the route of the people left behind. Ooof. this is heavy… but death is heavy so appropriate.
the last gif I originally made to go with the LXC set i did but it also didn’t fit… so repurposing! HA! I am so pleased i am able to recycle my effort. lol.
Also, trying out my tiny watermark. I really like the haoppopotamus… >.> maybe too much so. one big midwest OPE.
For @fytheuntamed ‘s Untamed Fall Fest. Day 26: Remains
So I was 100% inspired by @needtherapy‘s those who remain sets. She does a really cool job of showing before an after of characters in the show. And it’s heartbreaking and beautiful! Go check her out!
I went the route of the people left behind. Ooof. this is heavy… but death is heavy so appropriate.
the last gif I originally made to go with the LXC set i did but it also didn’t fit… so repurposing! HA! I am so pleased i am able to recycle my effort. lol.
Also, trying out my tiny watermark. I really like the haoppopotamus… >.> maybe too much so. one big midwest OPE.
For @fytheuntamed ‘s Untamed Fall Fest. Day 26: Remains
So I was 100% inspired by @needtherapy‘s those who remain sets. She does a really cool job of showing before an after of characters in the show. And it’s heartbreaking and beautiful! Go check her out!
I went the route of the people left behind. Ooof. this is heavy... but death is heavy so appropriate.
the last gif I originally made to go with the LXC set i did but it also didn’t fit... so repurposing! HA! I am so pleased i am able to recycle my effort. lol.
Also, trying out my tiny watermark. I really like the haoppopotamus... >.> maybe too much so. one big midwest OPE.
For @fytheuntamed‘s Untamed Fall Fest. Day 19: Windy
As a child I watched a lot of Sailor Moon and I loved the hair whipping in the wind aesthetic. So, I’ve tried to collect some CQL hair waving in the wind for this prompt. XD
For @fytheuntamed‘s Untamed Fall Fest. Day 17: Falling
So I saw this face while making a different gif set and decided it needed to be the first gif of another set. Luckily [is it luckily? maybe tragically considering the context of the story...], the sword fell as did NMJ’s head. o.O
So I included what fell below the cut. CW: blood, death, rapid flashing.
It wouldn’t be complete without it but I didn’t want to cause problems for anyone. Hope that’s ok. <3
不欲染塵 染塵不由我 I desired not to be Touched by Humanity [1] But before Humanity I was Helpless 冰雪顏色是心魄 The color of snow and ice is my soul
不欲恩仇恩仇誰能躲 I desired not Debts and Vengeance Yet who can hide from Debts and Vengeance 怕這萬般由來錯 I fear these utterly, resulting in my errors
Bu You / 不由 LXC Character Song from The Untamed OST
For @fytheuntamed‘s Untamed Fall Fest. Day 8: Lan Xichen and @mdzsnet‘s Lan Xichen Birthday Event
[1] I chose to translate 塵 which means dust as humanity because 染塵 means to be touched by human affairs or moral coils. In this case, I was alluding to romantic feelings but it doesn’t have to be romantic.
(more thoughts under break)
I am blaming @needtherapy for the fact that I even noticed their faces in this interaction. She’s been pushing the Nielan agenda on me hard. Between that and @baoshan-sanren writing Nielan in her Emperor WWX AU? I am succumbing to this agenda.
So now I see it in Sunshot interactions:
LXC’s little smile. And nmj responding with his own little smile. And then that bemused eyebrow raise of NMJ. Look at that eyebrow raise! I can't get over Da-ge's eyebrow raise.
Ok. I’m done for now.
3zun!
jin guangyao is that one kid who transferred schools 3 times in 2 years but made the most out of it. by that, i mean he became best friends w/ the most popular students from the first 2, & is the principal’s son in the 3rd one. a-yao knows how to network.
~anyways he was the manager for mingjue’s team, then xichen’s, and now for the lanling cheerleading squad! they both want to get him back tho bc he was rly good at the job.
(I’M STILL ALIVE GUYS but im super busy with work work work so for the meantime updates will only be once a week!)
A story about how these four people love and hurt each other over the years, which leads Nie Huaisang to make a choice about justice.
Side note: All the break titles are dao techniques. Because in his own way, Huaisang wields a dangerous blade as well.
切 Qiē: to slice
Nie Huaisang is waiting for his brother when he hears the knock, too gentle to be da-ge. And anyway, Mingjue wouldn’t knock. “Hello?” he calls out, curious.
The young man who enters is tall, nearly as tall as his brother, but slender and graceful, slipping around the door silently to bow.
Oh. It’s Lan-da-gongzi. Or rather, Zewu-Jun, as he’s recently been named. His brother’s…well…his brother’s. Huaisang isn’t sure exactly what they are, but he sees the way da-ge’s eyes follow this man with a look of stunned surprise he doesn’t wear for anyone else, so he knows they’re something.
“Gongzi, my apologies. You weren’t expecting me,” he says carefully, dark eyes searching Huaisang’s face. “Your brother asked me to come and tell you…he’s been unexpectedly called away. There is a skirmish on the border, and he regrets he will not be able to join you.”
Huaisang huffs and slumps down on his bed, bitterly disappointed. He shouldn’t be angry, he knows da-ge wouldn’t have left if he didn’t have to, but this is usually his favorite part of the week. It’s the only time they spend together anymore, and he glares at Zewu-Jun as though it is his fault.
To his surprise, the man doesn’t leave. “Can I help you instead? Nie-xiong told me what the two of you were planning. I…I can help.”
He sounds uncertain, and it makes Huaisang like him better. He always seems so calm and serene, and in the few times he’s visited Bujing Shi, Huaisang can’t remember him speaking more than ten words in a row. He wonders what on earth his brother could possibly find interesting about him. Well, Huaisang decides, noting the straight nose, high cheekbones, and full mouth, he’s handsome enough. Maybe that’s all that matters.
He looks at Zewu-Jun’s hands with their long musician’s fingers, and thinks about the offer. It will be strange, letting someone else braid his hair, but…it has to be done. He can’t go out without looking like a somewhat respectable Nie.
“Fine. Are you sure?”
The smile that curls around Zewu-Jun’s face gives Huaisang a little more understanding of what his brother sees.
“I am.”
He sinks down onto the floor and beckons Huaisang to sit in front of him. Silently, Huaisang hands him the comb and thread and steels himself for the pain of inexperienced hands.
But Zewu-Jun’s fingers are deft and agile, starting at the forehead and twisting Huaisang’s hair into plaits nearly as quickly as Huaisang himself could have done. He tries not to be impressed. As Zewu-Jun works, he begins to hum softly, and Huaisang relaxes, giving in to the pleasure of being fussed over, even if it’s not by da-ge. Da-ge would never have hummed.
Zewu-Jun pulls the plaits together and secures them at the top of Huaisang’s head, looping them into an intricately woven pattern before fastening the silver clasp and handing Huaisang the mirror.
“Where did you learn that?” Huaisang can’t resist asking, admiring the tight braids artfully draped. The man’s laugh is like a lightly plucked guqin string.
“Nie-xiong showed me when we met,” he says, leaning toward Huaisang as though it is a shared secret. “I practiced in case it was ever important. Now I am glad I did.”
Huaisang isn’t sure why, but he wants to keep Zewu-Jun’s warm smile on his face a little longer. He bows. “Thank you Zewu-Jun. Would you have tea with me?”
The smile stays and widens. “Gongzi, it would be an honor.”
砍 Kǎn: to chop
Huaisang knows he shouldn’t hide in cupboards anymore, but sometimes he likes to read…things he isn’t supposed to read, and he’s less likely to get in trouble if he’s in a cupboard.
He hears voices and freezes. Laughter, indistinct words, rustling of robes. He peers through the small crack between the cupboard doors, but he can only see part of the room. There is a man just inside the edge of his view and someone else not quite visible.
“Play for me?” da-ge asks, a throaty rumble in his voice, and Huaisang knows who the other person must be. There’s no one else his brother uses that voice for. The laughter confirms it.
nielan times two
lan wangji and nie huaisang’s relationship has always been fraught with betrayal lmao
ok this is the last of my sketches for these two pairs of bros i think ive gotten them out of my system for the time being. that means… i can draw… new characters… huehuehue….
[the untamed] first + last scene of each ep: 10 | 50