warlenys reblogged
don't mind me I'm just crying in the corner thinking about how it was always Wilson who was afraid of losing House. It was always him fearing that he'd have to watch House fall apart. It was always supposed to be him left alone and grieving his best friend, not the other way around.
#god#don’t#the guilt house will have felt……#i should’ve spent my life being more like you… you’d still have cancer…. yeah but at least i’d feel like i deserved it……..#wilson always thought his love for house was a liability#that he risked himself for it. it’s why he kept trying to leave#but he couldn’t…. he suffered the risk (/ enjoyed it) for the love…….#but the world is unfair. whether he suffered house’s pain didn’t matter. it didn’t let him live. it didn’t kill him. it just hurt#luckily. he likes that shit#hilson is so sad until you remember how psychotic they both are#actually that’s unfair house isn’t a masochist so yeah. actually#wilson would’ve survived it. house couldn’t#well not survived it but loved it until it killed him#house never thought he’d have to suffer wilson’s demise only his own#and his own pain will have hurt him less than wilson’s#really worst situation for both of them#as u say they lived under an assumed contract that eventually tore itself apart#they both had to suffer misery they didn’t agree to#sorry i’m going on a whole journey here just ignore me#but yeah. yeah#house md#hilson