✨dove✨

hi! :)

i’m dove! not new to tumblr, just new to being active on here

heres the main stuff i’ll probably end up sharing about:

✨kpop!✨

✼ my ults and biases are:

❥ a.c.e: jun, sehyoon

❥ alexa (ult)

❥ ateez: seonghwa (ult), san, wooyoung

❥ tbz: sangyeon, jacob, younghoon, sunwoo, eric

❥ craxy: wooah, swan

❥ eunbi

❥ kingdom: dann, mujin, louis

❥ le sserafim: chaewon, yunjin

❥ omega x: hangyeom, xen, jehyun

❥ onlyoneof: yoojung, wookjin

❥ seventeen: s coups, mingyu (ult), minghao, dino

❥ stray kids: chan (ult), lino, hyunjin, jisung, felix

✼ other kpop artists

❥ astro: jinjin, mj, moonbin (ult), rocky

❥ billlie: sua, haram

❥ chungha

❥ cix: seunghun, baejin, hyunsuk

❥ day6: youngk

❥ dreamcatcher: siyeon

❥ e’last: rano, choi in

❥ everglow: mia, aisha

❥ exo: baekhyun, chanyeol (ult), kai (ult), sehun

❥ (g)-idle: soyeon, minnie, yuqi

❥ huta

❥ itzy: yeji

❥ mamamoo: moonbyul

❥ monsta x: changkyun

❥ nct: taeyong, yuta, ten, mark, xiaojun, renjun, jaemin, yangyang

❥ onewe: yonghoon, harin, dongmyeong

❥ shinee: minho, taemin

❥ trendz: havit, leon, yoonwoo

❥ twice: jeongyeon, momo

❥ txt: yeonjun

❥ victon: seungwoo, sejun, subin

❥ wei: daehyeon, yongha

❥ woodz

❥ xdinary heroes: gunil, jungsu

❥ xeed: jaemin, bao

❥ yena

❥ youha

✨other stuff✨

✼ star wars (mainly prequels, rebels, & bad batch)

✼ mass effect

✼ dragon age

✼ dc (mainly batfam & young justice)

✼ gotham knights

✼ animal crossing

✼ pokémon

✼ borderlands

✼ marvel

it’s so strange to post to make after… what, a month of inactivity? which was not intentional, but bin’s passing was hitting…. a lot harder than even i expected, then kai’s sudden enlistment, then victon falling apart which was only semi confirmed by weverse. it was just a lot hitting in rapid succession and i was…. mentally not doing too great.

some days are easier than others bin… i miss you so much, and i think about your family, especially sua, all of your friends and your members every day. and knowing they all have each other helps a lot. plus all the little things that remind me of you. a dandelion in my yard, white butterflies showing up at your memorials, just these small beautiful things that remind me you’re still watching over them. i hope you’re having the best time wherever you are and that you’re enjoying your time. i love you so much my sweet boy

i love you and your precious smile more than words could ever express. the way you light up when you’re performing, the smile on your face when you engage with fans. the beautiful cat that you named after us ♡

i’m sorry to anyone who might see me on here for the next…. little while

i may become a lot more active on here just to post content of bin. i’m taking this loss… hard. and it brings me comfort to just… talk about him. not inherently about his death, but just…. about all the things i love about him, pictures of him i just love dearly, just…. talk about how much i miss him, but other than the initial posts from yesterday and maybe this post, it’ll all be tagged for him if anyone following me wants to mute for any reason, but especially if you cannot handle seeing him or discussions about him right now

i’d post on twitter but i’m so exhausted already of the think pieces about mental health and how people treat idols when we’ve been asked not to speculate what happened to him and on top of that every person saying that seems to always be the first person to have made some nasty comments about idols already. can’t even scroll tiktok as a distraction right now without risking the people taking advantage of this to make their sad edits when they don’t even know or care about him and it’s just to get engagement. i feel like my mourning is being taken advantage of when right now i just want to cry and talk about him in positive ways. i want to remember all the good about this beautiful man and what he means to me and to so many others who love him.

and knowing that he’s going to be reduced to this makes me violently ill. this beautiful dancer, amazing vocalist, fantastic actor is being reduced to the final day of his life, the final hours. and all i want is to see people talking about my beautiful boy’s skills or personality, just anything but making him into these final moments of his life

binnie i miss you more than words could ever express.

i hope people remember you for your talent, for your constant love for everyone you care about, for you being such an amazing brother to sua, for that beautiful eye smile and every wonderful part of your personality

thank you for everything, for every wonderful and beautiful moment you gave us and i hope you’re at peace and that we can meet again in another, better life

sua my beloved girl, i hope you’re surrounded by people who love and support you. i hope one day you can at least have some semblance of peace and not hurt so deeply when you think of bin. he loves you so much, he’s proud of you and your accomplishments and he’ll always be there in some form, even if just a memory, and be your loudest cheerleader

my beautiful, precious moon siblings i’m so sorry

my beautiful wonderful talented boy i miss you more than words can ever fully express. thank you for existing, for being a wonderfully supportive older brother to sua, for just being a joy to those around you and who loved you. i hope you know you changed so many lives and that you are so very loved by so many of us. i’ve never for a day regretted knowing, supporting, and loving you. i hope you’re at peace and that you will forever know how beloved you really are.

i know i’m going to miss you every single day from here on out, i’m not religious in the least but i hope with everything in me you found peace and are resting and that we meet again in another life. i love you more than any word could ever explain and i’m grateful for the time i’ve had with you

and there was the company statement….. my boy…. god i’m going to miss you so much.

i keep trying to type out my thoughts but…. all i have is crying, then thinking of sua, and feeling like my world just fell out from under me then crying again.