Very quick pinned post until I make a real one.

Hi, I'm 19, genderfluid, masc leaning and I have a complicated relationship with gender and how it relates to sexual stuff.

Open to most kinks except the obvious no-no stuff like unhygienic bathroom stuff, blood, vomit, scat, permanent harm and most forms of impact play. Use your common sense regarding this.

If you see me reblogging something about subby trans men or cis girls, know that that's something I want to do to a subby person. I generally don't sexually present as a trans guy/afab and especially not as a sub.

Also yes I occasionally post about detrans content, be warned it you aren't into that. Also post other stuff though, don't worry.

As a follow up post to my post earlier today... Some people really need to grow up. There's people(mostly cishet) on here who are actually transphobic and usually their fantasies aren't actually consensual. And even outside of tumblr, there's so many people who do so many bad things, but someone pretending to be another gender online is somehow the most evil thing ever?

Also, why is it so bad a trans guy might want to have sexual experiences as another gender, purely for play pretend? I thought especially here on Tumblr people were very accepting and encouraging about unusual relationships with gender.

Really, what is so bad about the wanting to play pretend as another gender that you have to go out of your way to call it transphobia, as if I'm not a trans person, who's experienced offline transphobia, that had lasting mental effects, and I know for some folks, physical. I don't think it's fair to compare an online blog you disagree with to that.

MOREOVER

you liked the content before you know my "true identity". What about my content changes knowing about that?

This post has already gone on way too long, but no, I don't think just me existing on this blog is somehow immoral or transphobic, and I'll be back to posting my regular stuff once this has calmed down a bit. I'd love to continue right away but I feel like people would judge me even more for being horny now just because I happen to have a gender identity they don't agree with.

Anyway, peace out again, stay strong and do your own thing.

We'll see about that when you come from behind that anon mask + don't police my identity

Going to delete later, might even deactivate depending on people's reaction because I'm about to alter how all of y'all see me. But I have to come clean.

The person behind this account, me, is... A trans man in real life. A really pathetic one. I (used to) pretend I'm a detransitioned guy who's got bottom surgery to explain my lack of penis, because in my mind, I'm just 100% male so I get confused when something is wrong. Also because as a trans man, nobody really gives a fuck if you're depressed or even su1c1dal because of your missing penis, but if you're a cis guy that lost his, you get swarmed with attention and validation and I wanted that.

Moreover, if I had been open about being a trans guy from the get go, people wouldnt have taken my fantasies involving using my penis seriously, and wouldve just laughed. I wouldve received all sorts of weird dms asking me to use my natal bits instead.

Oh and for those that like to know, living with dysphoria, trauma, and depression for over a decade gave me a disassociation disorder. In my mind, I genuinely am just a guy who lost his penis and got traumatized by that. I know that's not the physical reality, but, that's what's true for me personally and it can be hard to convince myself otherwise.

Im sorry to the people Ive led on using this account. All I wanted was some validation for my life crippling disorders. Im feeling particularly depressed and su1c1dal tonight, so I thought I might as well come clean. Will delete this post later and maybe even delete my account, idk. Peace out.

Lowkey too depressed to get my dick up sometimes, anyone want to instead just cuddle in bed and tell me all the masculine things they like about me?~