hello? is this thing on?

does anyone still follow me on here anymore?

big news y'all.... UNION J IS BACK. i have no idea what's going on, i truly did nOT expect this at all... didn't really think i'd see the day if we're being completely honest. i had some big feelings surrounding the break-up back in 2016 as i think we all did and i have big feelings now here in 2022. seeing that teaser video, everything just comes flooding back. this band was a source of light and joy for me during one of the hardest and most crucial periods of my life where i was in such a dark space... i kind of have a depression fog for the beginning half of my college career and i don't remember much, but i sure as hell remember the union j days, but specifically union j days here on tumblr with everyone. everyone knows boybands are my thing but THIS boyband in particular... this is the group i saw grow from DAY LITERAL 1. i saw them go through as much as you could see from a fans perspective, the good the bad the ugly. all of it. like, this band is special to me. 10 years this year that these guys got together... it's hard to fathom. it's been 5 years since union j as we knew it ceased to exist and like i said i felt... many emotions. in all honesty there was a time after that where i didn't know how i'd feel about a UJ reunion. but now that it's happening, it's one of those things where you never knew how much you needed it until it finally happens. i've always been a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. sometimes things need to fall apart so they can come back together stronger. this definitely feels like one of those situations.

anyways, if you're still here please say hello! i know blog urls may have changed and stuff but i still remember a bunch of people from back then. i'm kinda looking forward to editing union j pics again hehe.

hi guys i don’t know if any of my followers still come on here or even remember me but i really fuckin miss george a lot and the thought of never hearing from him again actually breaks my heart :(((( 

honest to god i know this is weird but i fucking love george shelley with my entire heart and soul. still. (and always). after 6 years. it just doesn’t stop. not that i thought it ever would. and like again i know this is weird but i literally felt like i was IN LOVE with the kid. genuinely. i mean what do i know about love anyway. and maybe it was just infatuation. or at least people will say so. but in my heart i felt like i was. some part of me will always feel that way about him. but after 6 years and after so much that has happened it’s different now. i love him differently. but the love i have for him is still intense and pure and it really is never gonna go away. like. ever. i know i dont know him and never will but at the same time i feel like i do on some level and on that level just seeing him grow from who he was when he first came into my life to now... god there are no words. its all beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time. for so many reasons. i just know when i think about him i feel overwhelmed because holy shit. this all sounds fucking insane and i’m well aware of that but i don’t know how to intelligently put this into words no matter how hard i try it’s impossible. and probably dumb. because who even am i. i just know that i thank god or whoever or whatever is out there in the universe that put us on this planet at the same time. i sound like a walnut. but i mean it. like where the heck would i be right now had he not come into my life at the precise moment that he did. i learned so much from him. my favorite happy thought. helped me get through so much. the light in my life. ew. this is so gouda. but i can’t help it it honestly blows my mind that one person can make me feel so many things at once. i don’t even mean this in a weird way. even though it’s weird. my heart just bursts for him. and he hasn’t been around much lately. and i miss him so much. but im sure he’s just trying to grow. and be in peace. and all that stuff. an angel. he’s been through so much. i just want him to be happy. 

does anyone have george’s interview from gay times mag that they wanna upload to this magical site that would be grand thank u so much

hi guys, been a while! hope you’re all doing well. wanted to wish you all the best in 2018. whatever happens this year, you’ll get through it. i hope you all grow (stronger and wiser, but never grow up, because that’s just silly now isn’t it), and go places you’ve always dreamed of going, meet new people and connect with new souls, surround yourself with people who make you want to be a better person and people who make you feel good about yourself, help one another and love one another. you got this! 

i don’t really post very much on here anymore, since it’s a sideblog, but if you’d like you can follow me on @xostephh (that’s my twitter, instagram, and snapchat handle as well) if you want to keep in touch! i’ll try to pop on here more. i miss the old days on here, a secret hideout for many of us. those were good times.

and yes, if you’re wondering, george shelley still is the very best person i know.  

happy new year, everyone. ♡