Undiagnosed Autism Feels

Tuafw i have been searching for more books about autism but literally every single one i find talks about functioning labels and it's just hhhhh i don't like it - 47

tuafw you're home alone and you can stim without anyone saying anything and it's Good

Tfw your family insists you should be diagnosed before they take you seriously, but you know the odds are so goddamn stacked against you that if even ONE doctor fucks up and misdiagnoses you, they won't believe anything else

TUAFW the staff at the SEN department start to sing, so you tell them to stop. However, they just say that you should go to another room, because ‘it’s Christmas so people are going to sing’... what does that even mean!? I just don’t want you to sing! They know it causes sensory problems and meltdowns but apparently if it’s the holiday season it’s different... am I being unfair? (🧬🗝, Helix Key)

Itaat when you don't remember what you did after you have a meltdown?

Does autism or cognitive issues become worse as you grow up?

tuafw there is sauce on your noodles. sensory nightmare

Tfw you’re severely sensitive to loud noises and repetition but your sibling stims by watching the same movies over and over again on the tv in the house’s shared spaces so loud you can hear it from upstairs with the door closed and he can’t wear headphones cause they hurt him and you just want to scream cause he needs the noise but you need the quiet and your headphones just don’t cut it

Tuafw what the fuck do people mean when they say “I can see it in your eyes” or “his eyes looked like he was far away” or “her eyes said something different”. You can’t tell what people are feeling by their eyes and apparently that makes you weird (silent movies are so hard to watch cause nobody’s faces mean anything if it’s not over exaggerated)

Thanksgiving is hell. Family I hate that force me to touch them, loud football games, dishes clattering, food with bad textures, all bad. Then you add in the stuff that neurotypicals also hate (eg politics) and you have a recipe for utter misery.

Does anyone else get that weird feeling of nothing in their hands? Like,, not moving them feels strangely uncomfortable but you don't know why it's bothering you so much bc it feels the same as normal? -🌹⚜️

tuafw your family makes fun of you for using the same flavor of toothpaste your whole life (aka still using kid's toothpaste in college) and they insist on their toothpaste tasting the same but it doesn't. And using any flavor other than Your Flavor makes you sick.

Tuafw you get angry instead of panicked (on the outside) when change happens, and it turns you really bitter and passive aggressive @ the situation. But you don't wanna be like that! You hate confrontation and being angry! But your brain is freaking out, so it just turns to pure distaste in this situation automatically. So you just hide in your room and stim so you don't accidentally make someone feel bad lmao,,

Tuafw you get diagnosed with ADHD but not autism because you had friends growing up and because your literacy skills are significantly above average.....

Tuafw you do so many online tests to see if you have it lmao (does anyone know of any at least semi-accurate tests?)