un-local reblogged
can we please be more productive with our online time
#FOR REAL! sorry op; tag ramble time. please disregard#I curate my dash well so I don't see much of this anymore; but this literally happened to me irl the other week @ work. 0/10 experience.#I was stuck in a 4hr car ride with like. 3 extremely white & political progressives & the only thing they wanted to do was play Ally with m#They knew my ah. circumstances. and the whole time it was just them re-affirming that white people in history were super terrible and mean#And they *completely* understand why things are so bad and systemic blah blah blah... Wow look! They're the good ones!#And after a point it's just an exercise in misery. They're all doomspiraling and getting themselves worked up (at my expense)... for what?#So you can feel like you passed a popquiz?#Buddy. Don't use me to mop up your white guilt. I'm just sitting here. Trying to enjoy a roadtrip.#Idk. You know what I mean right?#Where all the sudden you realize you're like a rare pokemon to them; and now they can show off how enlightened they are to each other.#Like a prop.#And when you check out & wanna move on (bc you don't wanna talk about the genocide & suffering of your people all hours of the day)#They get all weird. Because what do you mean you want to sit back and enjoy things rn. How dare you try to set boundaries about how#We use you to show off/re-affirm each other. Ew. It's like you're sticking your head in the sand; we HAVE to talk about these things#(Which is to say: THEY have to talk about it. So they feel like they did something. They can cross it off their little checklist now)#Anyway. The point here is circlejerks are very draining and i want no part of them#Like... We agree! That's good! Go team! That means we can move on. And talk to each other like humans do maybe.#[ben affleck smoking image]#anyway#sorry for the tag ramble op#misc tag#fav#i will say that this story is more amusing when you know im fucking diaspora and whether or not i even “count” as the minority they were#using me as is a very contentious matter of debate#like. you're using me to exorcise ur white guilt.......... and i can't even absolve you in the way you think i can#bro wtf#lmao