heartbreak feels so good / fake out
JOANIE // THE FRONT BOTTOMS
[text ID: orange block letters in all caps on a bright blue background read, "I took a lot of day trips, tryin' to get away trips" end ID]
[ID: Three quotes.
1: Nothing ever ends poetically. It ends and we turn it into poetry. All that blood was never once beautiful. It was just red.
2: Jessica has a forehead scar from the deep end of a pool. I ask Jessica what drowning feels like and she says not everything feels like something else.
3: Love is not like anything / Especially not a fucking knife
End ID]
Kait Rokowski / Jessica Gives Me a Chill Pill, Angie Sijun Lou / I’m a Fake, The Used
love as a form of devotion
madeline miller, the song of achilles / j.r.r. tolkien, lord of the rings: fotr / marie ulven, i wanna be your girlfriend / lord huron, ends of the earth / lord of the rings: rotk (dir. peter jackson) / william goldman, the princess bride / taylor swift, lover
[ID 1: "Will you come with me?
The never-ending ache of love and sorrow. Perhaps in some other life I could have refused, could have torn my hair and screamed, and made him face his choice alone. But not in this one. He would sail to Troy and I would follow, even into death.
"Yes," I whispered. "Yes."
Relief broke in his face, and he reached for me. I let him hold me, let him press us length to length so close that nothing might fit between us.
ID 2: "Leave him! I said. I never mean to. I am going with him, if he climbs to the Moon;
ID 3: Oh Hannah Tell me something nice Like flowers and blue skies Oh Hannah I will follow you home Although my lips are blue and I'm cold
ID 4: To the ends of the earth, would you follow me? There's a word that was meant for our eyes to see To the ends of the earth, would you follow me? Well, if you won't, I will say my goodbyes to thee
ID 5: Sam (desperate whisper) Wake up... don't leave me here alone. Don't go where I can't follow.
ID 6: Can I go where you go? Can we always be this close? end ID]
St. Vincent, “Los Ageless”
[text ID: I guess that’s just me, honey, I guess that’s how I’m built I try to write you a love song but it comes out a lament I try to write you a love song but it comes out a lament I try to write you a love song but it comes out a lament end ID]
running up that hill by kate bush / you found me by the fray / jesus christ by brand new / casimir pulanski day by sufjan stevens / clean by adia victoria / big god by florence + the machine / i can feel your pain by manchester orchestra / crossroad blues by robert johnson / take me to church by hozier / hallelujah by leonard cohen
[1: And if I only could /I'd make a deal with God /And I'd get him to swap our places
2: I found God /On the corner of First and Amistad /Where the west /Was all but won /All alone /Smoking his last cigarette /I said, "Where you been?" /He said, "Ask anything"
3: Well, Jesus Christ, I'm not scared to die /I'm a little bit scared of what comes after /Do I get the gold chariot? /Do I float through the ceiling?
4: All the glory that the Lord has made /And the complications when I see his face /In the morning in the window /All the glory when he took our place /But he took my shoulders and he shook my face /And he takes and he takes and he takes
5: First of all, there is no god /Cause I went out and killed my god /And laid his body in the dirt /I killed him clean, so it did not hurt
6: You need a big god /Big enough to hold your love /You need a big god /Big enough to fill you up
7: Well, I watched your black tied family /Rise up from graves near cemeteries /That I have not been to since your goodbye /And I drank another simile /And compared your Jesus to a thief /He took my bones and He turned them into bread
8: I went to the crossroads, fell down on my knees /I went to the crossroads, fell down on my knees /Asked the Lord above, have mercy now, save poor Bob if you please
9: If I'm a pagan of the good times /My lover's the sunlight /To keep the Goddess on my side /She demands a sacrifice /Drain the whole sea /Get something shiny /Something meaty for the main course
10: Maybe there's a God above /But all I've ever learned from love /Is how to shoot at someone who outdrew you /end ID]
schopenhauer / ‘tis the damn season / our father who aren’t in heaven / jack kerouac / michael dumontier and neil farber
[text ID 1 of 5: The hedgehog's dilemma, or sometimes the porcupine dilemma, is a metaphor about the challenges of human intimacy. It describes a situation in which a group of hedgehogs seek to move close to one another to share heat during cold weather. They must remain apart, however, as they cannot avoid hurting one another with their sharp spines. Though they all share the intention of a close reciprocal relationship, this may not occur, for reasons they cannot avoid.
text ID 2 of 5: But I felt it when I passed you /There’s an ache in you, put there by the ache in me
photo ID 3 of 5: Someone holds out their clenched, bloody fist as someone else’s hand hovers over it, fingers spread but not quite touching.
text ID 4 of 5: “I’d sleep and forget it; I had my own life, my own sad and ragged life forever.” -Jack Keruoac, On the Road
ID 5 of 5: a painting of an open book. The first page reads “and that’s why some stories have to end in the middle.” In the middle of the second page it reads “the end.” /end ID]
unconditional love…..
[text ID: 1: And I'd choose you; in a hundred different lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I'd find you and I'd choose you.
2: I am my mother's child, I'll love you 'til my breathing stops / I'll love you 'til you call he cops on me
3: I will love you forever; whatever happens. Until I die and after I die, and when I find my way out of the land of the dead, I'll drill about forever, all my atoms, until I find you again.
4: Still I am learning unconditional and true / Still I am burning unconditional for you
5: Beatrice: I love you with so much of my heart that none is left to protest. end ID]
Helena // My Chemical Romance
[text ID: came a time when every star fall brought you to years again /end ID]
[text ID: I’ve never felt more alone / feels so scary getting old /end ID]
no choir, florence + the machine // blue lily, lily blue, maggie stiefvater // it, stephen king // interview with jenny slate (2019) // litany in which certain things are crossed out, richard siken // fleabag (2016)
[text ID 1 of 6: But the loneliness never left me / I always took it with me
2 of 6: Lonesome means a state of being apart. Of being other. Alone-some. /
3 of 6: But Hanscom had no sense of being lonely because he had never been anything but. If the condition had been new, or more localized, he might have understood, but loneliness both encompassed his life and oevrreached it. It simply was, like his double-jointed thumb or /
4 of 6: I think I’ve come to terms with the fact that there will always be a ribbon of loneliness running through who I am. /
5 of 6: You will be alone always and then you will die. /
6 of 6: You know, either everyone feels like this is little bit, and they’re just not talking about it, or I’m completely fucking alone. Which isn’t fucking funny. /end ID]
lethargy // bastille
[id: white text over a bright pink background reading “you checked out years ago / oh, what I’d do not to worry like you/ end id]
sue zhao // all i’ve ever known, hadestown // hair match, the mountain goats // the firm, john grisham // past lives, kesha // me & my dog, boygenius
[ID 1 of 6: “In my dreams I am kissing your mouth and you’re whispering ‘where have you been?’ I say, ‘I’ve been lost but I’m here now. You’re the only person who has ever been able to find me.’”
ID 2 of 6: I knew you before we met /And I don’t even know you yet /All I know is you’re someone I have always known
ID 3 of 6: I loved you before I even ever knew what love was like
ID 4 of 6: “I’ve loved you all my life. Even before we met. Part of it wasn’t even you. It was just a promise of you.”
ID 5 of 6: We were lovers in a past life /I can see it in your green eyes /Maybe you were one of my wives
ID 6 of 6: I had a fever/ until I met you /Now you make me cool /end ID]
Campus // vampire weekend
[text ID: How am I supposed to pretend / I never want to see you again? end ID]
Atlas and the Hesperides by John Singer Sargent // “Carry That Weight” by The Beatles
Requested by themonochromia!
[ID: an oil on canvas painting of Atlas bearing the world on his shoulders as he kneels among the naked, sleeping Hesperides. Their pale skin and yellow hair are in various styles ranging from loose curls to braided updos. The sgold frame around the painting has ornate gold carvings in the corners.
White text over the image reads: Boy, you’re going to carry that weight, carry that weight a long time. /end ID]
Kim Addonizio, ‘For You’ | Margaret Atwood, ‘Hesitations Outside the Door’ | Arundhati Roy, The God of Small Things | Mazzy Star, ‘Fade Into You’ | Margaret Atwood, ‘Pre-Amphibian’ | Adonis, ‘Transformations of the Lover’ | Leonard Cohen & Sharon Robinson, ‘Boogie Street’
[ID: seven screenshots of text.
image one: For you I undress down to the sheaths of my nerves. / I remove my jewelry and set it on the nightstand, / I unhook my ribs, spread my lungs flat on a chair. / I dissolve like a remedy in water, in wine. / I spill without staining, and leave without stirring the air. / I do it for love. For love, I disappear. end image one.
image two: your mouth is nothingness / where it touches me I vanish. end image two.
image three: She could feel how soft she felt to him. She could feel herself through him. Her skin. The way her body existed only when he touched her. The rest of her was smoke. end image three.
image four: [Chorus] Fade into you / Strange you never knew / Fade into you / I think it’s strange you never knew / Fade into you / Strange you never knew / Fade into you / I think it’s strange you never knew / I think it’s strange you never knew. end image four.
image five: but here I blur / into you. end image five.
image six: If I’m a sorcerer, my love’s like incense. / If I’m a sorcerer, my love’s a fire, an altar, an ember. / I turn into smoke. end image six.
image seven: So come, my friends, be not afraid / We are so lightly here / It is in love that we are made; / In love we disappear. end image seven.
/end ID]
Micheal Gray Bulls @graybulla, I think love is something that happens to other people / noah and the arc, second lover / unknown / fleabag dir. phoebe wallerbridge / Mitski, nobody
[ID 1 of 5, text: I think love is something /that happens to other people—nebulous, /distant, an invention of the movies; I think love /is like death / as in, /it happens to everyone but you
ID 2 of 5, text: And I will die and never hold your hand /And I will die and never hold your hand
ID 3 of 5, image: Close up drawing of a person’s flushed cheeks and hollow gaze as they watched a shadowy couple press their foreheads together in the distance. The caption read “I feel I am destined to observe. ...Never experience.”
ID 4 of 5, text: strength to know what’s right. And love isn’t something that weak people do
ID 5 of 5, text: I’ve been big and small /And big and small /And big and small again /And still nobody wants me /end ID]