actually henry

In 2-3 weeks on January 22nd I'll hit my 1 year recovery mark from self-harm. I want to make a big status about it on Facebook but I still have no idea what to say. I have a lot of ideas for it though. One of my ideas was just writing a story about "a girl who felt lost, depressed, and suicidal. she felt so bad about her life that she used to hurt herself, not just once a week but every day" and then eventually be like hey surprise that was me a year ago and then come around and be like the sad part of the story isn't that that was once me, it's the fact that this story still relates to hundreds of thousands of teenagers today who struggle with depression and self-harm and suicidal thoughts and we do nothing about it to try and stop them because they're ashamed of it and think it needs to be hidden.

I just ... I want this status to create a big reaction out of people. January 22nd will be a huge deal for me and I want people to know.

So I finally thought about what I want to get for a Next to Normal tattoo.

I want to get the mangled music staff at the top of the N2N album art with the quote "something next to normal would be okay" but I'm not sure where. Maybe my lower back? If I want something on my shoulder, it would probably be more likely to be something Ordinary Days related.

For the story behind this, you can check the read more:

trigger warnings: suicide, self-harm, mental illness

Before you read this, please note that I am fine. I am not depressed or suicidal.