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excerpt from a book i’ll never write #79 // thank you for making my face and my heart smile
- excerpt from a book i’ll never write #70 // i wish i could go back to the moment every night since
“my thoughts roam to places i tell them not to go.
i beg them even,
yet they still manage to get there.
i vividly remember the words you once said to her,
the ones you used to say to me too.
the visuals of you two together,
the look you used to give to me too.
the excitement in your voice when you spoke about her,
the same you had for me too.
but now you’re back.
you claim you want me.
but was i passing through your head
in those moments my thoughts roam to?
when you said the same words
you once said to me?
when you spent moments with her
and looked at her as if she was your whole world
like i used to be?
when you spoke about her
like she was your favorite memory as a child
like i used to be?
because you were.
and you still are.
but was i?
-excerpt from a book i’ll never write #68 // you stopped thinking about me the moment your lips touched hers
“i would give
anything
just to be able to take away
my pain
and put the pieces of me
back together.
but it seems
like i can’t even find
all
my
pieces.
because they’re gone.
you took them.
and you threw them
away.”
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-excerpt from a book i’ll never write #62 // because oh, how they are missing out
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- excerpt from a book i’ll never write #52 // i just wish someone cared enough to realize it
i always knew you,
i always saw you,
we always greeted each other,
but that was it.
our paths seemed to parallel but never cross.
i always wanted to know the boy behind the soft hello’s,
i always wanted to see you after we passed by each other,
we always seemed to be caught up with something else,
but that finally changed.
our paths paralleled then intertwined.
i always spoke to you from the moment i woke up till the moment i fell asleep,
i always went to you with my seemingly pointless problems and you listened,
we were both dealing with hard times,
but we helped each other through it.
our paths intertwined then our relationship grew.
i always knew i was falling for you,
i always knew you felt something too,
we knew we loved each other,
but we had an upspoken understanding.
our relationship grew then we saved each other.
i always knew you belonged in my life,
i always knew i never wanted to lose you,
we always knew each other,
but we found each other at the right time.
our salvation for each other remains and we persevere together.
you used to be the boy i always knew,
but now you will always be the boy i love.
- excerpt from a book i’ll never write #51
-excerpt from a book i’ll never write #49 // please let me be the one..
-excerpt from a book i’ll never write #48 // because oh how i miss your lips against mine
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- excerpt from a book i'll never write #42 // please be good to yourself
