#whatever – @thewordsyouneverunderstood on Tumblr

The first time you try to make me feel something other than love, I am sixteen and we are sitting on the floor in your living room. You kiss me gently and you lay me down on you. I let it happen and I feel your hands running down my back. I shiver because I'm scared, because I want to say no but my voice is too quiet. Because I'm sixteen and because I'm naive. Because I'm sixteen and I think that if I love you, I owe you this much but it's not true. I don't owe you anything. I'll push you off of me and I won't say a single word. You'll sit up and look at me as I get dressed. You ask me to stay, but I tell you that I can't. I walk out the door and leave it open behind me. I say to myself, it he loves you he'll understand. If he loves you, he'll call again. You don't understand and you never call again. You don't forget and I don't either.

- Sixteen // thewordsyouneverunderstood

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But it’s alright. I’ll be alright without you. I’m going to find someone who wants to know me, I mean really know me. They’ll ask about my mother and they’ll know that I’ve always wished to be closer to my father. They’ll ask what I’m scared of, what makes my body ache and they’ll know it. They’ll sing me my favorite songs on the nights when I can’t sleep and someone is going to hold my hand without being shaky and I’m sorry that it can’t be you, know that it won’t be you and someday, years from now, your mother will call to ask how you’ve been and she’ll tell you that she saw me, she’ll tell you that my soul isn’t black and blue anymore, that I speak without a stutter, and you’ll tell her you fucked up. I was everything you needed but I was everything you were too scared to seize. When you realize this, it’ll be too late by then. I’ll have met somebody else, somebody worth breaking my bones for.

Some Shit // thewordsyouneverunderstood

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I am sitting across from the girl who was everything that I couldn’t be for you. She is beautiful and there really is no denying it but did you see what her insides looked like? Did they look like mine?

Questions For You // thewordsyouneverunderstood

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I've tried to stop thinking about you but yet somehow, you're still the only pretty little thing in my head.

- thewordsyouneverunderstood

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