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The switch from Daylight Saving Time to Standard Time which will take away my glorious hour of daylight in the afternoon and give it to the early morning is just another example of how Morning People are an oppressive class in modern society
The Shining (1980) dir. Stanley Kubrick
I'm so angry. And I really don't like being angry. It's the one emotion I despise most in me because I feel helpless with it. I don't have any way to channel anger. I can handle depression, fear, anxiety, excitement, but anger? I don't like myself when I'm angry. I feel like I want to scream but I can't do that. I want to stab or punch something and I can't do that. The things that would allow me to channel it, I can't do. So I simmer with anger and it festers and grow until I'm in tears.
I don't like being angry.
And I'm angry about so much tonight. I'm angry about the election and the state of the world. I'm angry that it has revealed things about people I thought I knew. I'm angry that I can't call my best friend to talk about things because I know how she voted and I can't even look at her right now. And I'm so angry at the men in my family who act like children and who think they don't have to do anything to help this family. When I ask my brother if he can drive me to work in the morning so my mom can take my dad to his doctor's appointment (an appointment my dad made knowing I worked at 9 and actively decided his schedule was the only one that mattered) and my brother then laughs at me and says no like I made a huge joke, I get angry. Then when I sarcastically say thanks for the driving help, after finding a ride to work, and he says "I help as much as you do" I get angry. Yes, I don't know how to drive and I can't help with the driving. But if I could help I WOULD. He can help and actively decided to not help because he doesn't fucking care about anyone else but him. And I pay rent and bills and clean the house and buy groceries and make dinner and take care of the pets. All he fucking does is work 2 hours a day and stays at home playing his fucking video games all day. He doesn't pay his phone bill or help financially at all. He refused to drive my mom to surgery. We had to take a fucking Uber there. He doesn't help with ANYTHING. He's an asshole and I want to stab him.
I am ANGRY and I don't like it.
The Wizard of Oz (1939) dir. Victor Fleming
Having media literacy is more important than being good at math prove me wrong
They need to remove the "convicted felon" option from job applications, and anything else that requires you to say whether or not you have a criminal history. Because CLEARLY if we can have a convicted felon in the white house, then convicted felons everywhere should be allowed to get jobs, should be allowed to vote, etc.
M*A*S*H | 1.20 - "The Army - Navy Game"
I feel like trump looking likely to beat a more competent and qualified female candidate twice, both being the only times a woman has been a nominated presidential candidate, is a real blow to the psyche for all women and girls in the U.S.. It seems to deliver a message of "no matter how put-together, professional, and smart you are, you will always lose to the dumbest, loudest man in the room."
Got into work today. Upset. Angry. Nervous.
But every single one of my coworkers, as we came in for the day, exchanged dejected, sad hellos with each other and we talked about how disappointed and angry we all are. I was nervous going in just cause I wasn't sure who might have voted red. Not one person I work with voted red. Not one. We are all angry and sad and scared. At our morning meeting my manager spoke about how we're all feeling "maybe not our best today but know that you are loved here and I love this team and you are cared for here. That you all matter and if anyone needs anything please let us know". And she said all of that while beginning to cry. And then the whole team basically started crying. And we hugged each other before going to today's posts.
Also we were all given rainbow lanyards for pride month and a pin selection to choose from (I chose one that says "You are safe with me") and today we all put them back on. All of us.
I'm literally going to cry. Again. Y'all I've got a good work team here. The rest of the world is shit but I'm so grateful to have found this work family.
I'm furious and I'm disappointed. How. How can that fascist pig who tramples over democracy, who hates women, people of color and anyone on the LGBT+ spectrum, who is a criminal and a rapist, get elected again? How? (This rhetorical. I don't want to hear your bullshit excuses if you voted red this election.) This country is so disappointing. I fear what will happen in these coming years. I hope keeping your stupid guns and getting your "better economy" (yeah right like that will happen) will be worth it to you while people die from the decisions Trump makes. Shame on you all.
to any usamericans freaking out rn please try to remember it's not at all over. AP hasn't called the race yet and it always looks really bad at this time of night. Rural areas report their votes much earlier because they don't have as many to count, and they tend to vote red. Republicans tend to vote in person. Democrats tend toward mail-in. Lines are huge and turnout is larger than a lot of places are equipped to deal with and so it's taking a long time to get votes in. Line wait times are longer than they were even designated to be open for.
Blue areas tend to come in late (cities take MUCH longer to count for obvious reasons). Red areas tend to come in early. This happens every election and it's called the 'red mirage'. Biden's election flipped overnight, though. It's still anyone's game.
I know we already lost the Senate but that was kind of predictable. Please, if you're in line -- stay there. You have a right to vote and they can't send you home. And if you've already cast your vote then try not to let the anxiety win. Nothing will be certain until all the mail-in and absentee ballots are counted, and that won't be tonight. News outlets calling the election is not the same thing as it being won either way. It's too early to know shit.
