Take a seat :)

Thank you so much D:

I'm not very good with compliments, so take the GIF as my mental reaction XD

Thanks for the heads up with the ask Button! I never noticed. I'll check out if I can change that.

And last but not least, you're always welcome :3 the Merlin fandom has been the kindest I've ever been in. And I want to give that feeling back if I can :) it's so much easier to enjoy something in an environment that's so peaceful and welcoming.

Hi :3 thank you for the question.

I think to answer that, I have to categorize a bit.

Like, hardest to write physically, because of all the work I had to put in that overwhelmed me at some point? Definitely the Clockroom. It's still unfinished because there are too many things to consider and that's why I had to break it off.

Hardest to write emotionally was Everything I do (I do it for you). It was very self indulgend at a time when I was struggling with unraveled trauma.

Morally, I'd say it was Uther's knight. Because here I'm being a bit political and that could potentially be a problem. Or so I feared. But the Merlin fandom is really kind, that's why I was brave enough to post it at all.

If I were to name a fic that brings me through all of these categories, although I find it objectively easier in each respected one, taking into account the backlash I received so far, then I'd have to name my most current project: second chances. It's the longest fic I've ever written (so far, help me), with typical time travel problems that are really not that simple, with far too many PoVs; it's focusing a lot on mental health and queerness; and the environment I put the fic out to has been rather hostile in parts.

If you were to ask what the easiest fic was, that's a lot easier to answer: connecting the dots. It wasn't that long, I gave a fuck about consistency and I was vibing the whole time. It was such a blast.

I hope I could answer your question ^^

Asks are always welcome:3

Hi :)

Haha, lol XD

I'm a BBC Merlin main. But I'm also into HP, Voltron legendary defender and Once Piece.

There are other shows I watch, so I'm just listing the ones I write fanfic about;)

Welcome on my blog, I hope you'll have some fun ^^

Haha XD

Thank you. I imagine that's what they would call the knight's regular seat at the rising sun XD

Honestly, I'm not entirely sure. Fanfiction -> BBC Merlin -> Merthur XD But I suppose that's not really what you mean.

I love magic reveals, I love secrets that are slowly uncovered. I like to write about what makes a character tick, how their emotions influence their decisions and how they read the people and the environment around them. I love the little regrets and thoughts that haunt them and make them who they are.

I love to write what-if stories and I love to include certain scenes that touched me in some way.

Other than that, I don't think I have a set favourite thing to write about. I like to test out the possibilities and merge different tropes together. I suppose that's it. Thank you for the ask ^^ :)

Hey there :)

I don't mind at all, thank you so much for leaving a message ^^ You did send this twice but that's alright, I didn't immediately answer it anyway. There is a lot more going on right now than I thought it would. And you don't need to feel like you're bothering me. ^^ This is what the ask box is for. I would disable it if I didn't want messages ^^

As to your question... I have some that left an impact on me and that even after 10+ years my cheese brain hasn't let slip through the cracks. But I don't really have favorites. They were simply favorites in the moment, so I'm listing them randomly. But they all did inspire me to write in one way or another. They are the reason why I'm here.

Thank you so much!!!! :D

Thank you so much!!!!!

Aaaah!!! <3

Hi there :)

It's very kind of you to ask, but I'm fairly certain it's none of mine. It might have been a reblog, but I can't take credit for the idea, nor do I know who originally posted it. :/

unfortunately my memory isn't very good, especially with names.

I'm sorry I couldn't help you, but I wish you good luck finding the original post. ☺️

Of course not! Thank you a ton really :)

My brain just goes like this sometimes XD:

Haha XD

XD no, it's inspired by Tributes of panem XD

Also, don't give me new ideas XD

What a fun ask I'm totally not doing to procastinate on cooking... XD

BBC Merlin

Arthur Pendragon is, in my head, demiromantic and bisexual... It sort of depends on the circumstances/episode. Arthur needs a very long time to really feel connections with people and only starts to consider love after he really gets to know them, hence his constant search for true love in the show. With Merlin I'm not entirely sure if he was attracted to him instantly, strangely enough feeling a connection from the moment they met, or if it takes him till the end of the series when Merlin confesses his magic and finally shows his true self to realise the depth of his feelings.

Merlin is, well... Bi Bi Bi. A disaster bi in fact. With a preference for sweaty men in metal boxes, he's not very peculiar. However, Merlin is a one person hyperfixation kind of guy. Most people are convinced that Merlin's gay.

Gwen: I feel like most people in BBC Merlin are bi and Gwen is no exception. Like Merlin, she prefers the hero type in metal uniforms. But she also had a thing for Morgana in the beginning.

Morgana: lesbian. I have never seen a woman so disinterested in men, I'm not surprised that they casted Katie McGrath in supergirl as supergirls love interest. I might settle for homoromantic and asexual. But definitly in love with Gwen in the very beginning.

Sir Leon, my beloved, the immortal, the one and only, the eternal suffering aro/ace. I don't have to explain this one. The only counter moment is the Lamia episode where Leon suddenly develops interest in women out of nowhere. My personal take is that anyone could be fallen under a Lamia's spell, this one just had a taste for men (and male presenting).

Sir Elian: once upon a time I clocked them as nonbinary and sadly that's as far as I thought into this character. Pretty sure he's aromantic. He/they pronouns. I dunno, I don't think Elian would conform to anything if given a choice. Aromantic too, I think. Like Leon, there is no interest there, but he does play around with Percival and Gwaine quite often, so I'd take that as allosexual.

I am excluding Gwaine because I think canon Gwaine is written as a straight oblivious fuckboy. Albeit a kind one XD fanon Gwaine is often poly/ pan... Or into apples. Lmao XD and I'm not sure about Percival because the man has a dead wife and kids.

Voltron

Keith: with his lack of interest in women, he can only be gay. That man looks at no one quite the same as he looks at Lance. what the hell was the whole bonding thing if not a hint for post canon klance? Sorry, not sorry XD rivals to best friends to lovers.

Lance: *bi bo bi* bisexual lighting Lance. Doesn't matter if you prefer klance or shallura, this man is a walking bi flag. I don't know what you mean by proof, just look at this wiggly boy with the fingerguns. He can't even sit straight! Can't do math either. He's perfect!

Shiro: probably the only character in my entire history of shipping that I would unqueer without feeling bad about it. I know he's gay, I just don't really see it in the writing. Of course there aren't always clear signs that someone is gay which is why this is good rep actually (+he's married), but you asked me for proof in the show and all I see is that this man is a dad. That's his gender and his orientation and that's all I really need to know.

Pidge: aro/ace because I love my aroaces and this child loves robots and robots only. Also nonbinary/genderqueer. Pronouns: fuck/off XD

I think Lotor should have been bi. Pre-canon Lotor had us Langsters ship Lotor x Lance and it was so much fun :D

Bob: gender: evil, orientation: villain. I hate this guy

Coran: the georgous man is either gay or pan. More likely pan because I vaguely remember he had a son?

I hope I answered your question reasonably enough XD thank you for the ask, anon :3

Hello anon :) Let me begin by saying that I didn't quite know how to answer your question. I am spiraling with memories of how I came to read queer media, but I can hardly assume that you sought it out for the same reasons as I did, nor do I know you enough to say accurately what may be going on. But I do want to give you my two cents, if you want them. First things first, whatever I am about to assume, or say, whichever feels true, your feelings are valid and nothing weird is happening to you. You are just a person who is figuring out what they like, what they don't like, maybe even who they are. That is normal. There is nothing wrong with you. And there is nothing weird happening to you.

There is a strength in knowing who you are. And you are strong for questioning yourself. That is very sensible. And if you're going against what you've been taught, this speaks for your inner sense of justice and empathy. Being queer may mean weird, but we mean that in the best way. Being weird is normal too. Don't be afraid of what who-you-are says about you. (Be wary of what that says about them.)

You're not annoying, this is wonderful :D Thank you so much for sharing!!!!

I love when Merlin doesn't have his magic under control when he's drunk! And also not knowing what he's actually controlling and what he isn't. :D and Lancelot accidentally being revived O.o And jealous Arthur, naturally ;)

I wish you a wonderful day! I really like your gift ❤️

You know it's bad when I can actually quote them without looking them up:

2. My second favorite is the one with the disir, when Arthur asks Merlin how he knew the place was sacred. It's the first time Merlin dares to open up about himself and it breaks my heart how it ends. "It's obvious." "Pretend it isn't." "Everything here ... is so full of life. Like everything is so much more than itself."

3. DIamond of the day part 2. Just - the entire episode. I love how heartbreaking it is (and I keep rewatching it so many bloody times, aaargh!). But I especially love the honesty and well... I love that Merlin got to choose when and how to tell Arthur about his magic. "I was born to be your servant, Arthur. And I am proud of that."

4. BOGMAN! The HUG! Arthur's desperation when Merlin is gone! Just - URGH! They are killing me.

5. The deleted scenes. First and foremost the Sigil scene! Everything is gayer in the deleted scenes. "Just ... take it." Personal Merthur headcanons?

I very much like the idea that Arthur believes that Merlin is in love with him. Like, from the very first time he saw Merlin steal a dress to the final episode, Arthur is convinced that that's Merlin's secret. I also like the idea that Arthur believes what they have is enough because Merlin never asked for more and Arthur is too afraid to lose Merlin to imply anything more. I also love the idea that at some point in their 10 years of friendship, Arthur CONSIDERED that Merlin may have magic. But that Merlin's constant choices against magic lead him to believe that it's just his imagination.

Arthur needs glasses. Short sighted, probably something like -3 and worse dioptrin. That's why he doesn't notice Merlin's eyes glowing golden when he's right in front of him. Arthur assumes it's candlelight or something.

Arthur keeps trying to show off in front of Merlin to earn his approval. (This one is canon, actually, what am I talking about?)

The servants in Camelot have their own Merlin fanclub and many of them are trying to set Merlin and Arthur up. Some of the knights like to help out.

Everyone thinks Merlin is the jealous one. However, turns out, whenever Merlin suspects a foreign prince/knight/bandit of doing something evil, or attacking Arthur, he is always right. Merlin is sensible and he trusts in Arthur, so he would never truly get jealous when there is no reason to be. When there IS a reason, he turns absolutely murderous though. In fact, Arthur is the jealous one. Only his jealousy is slow cooking. But it's less rational and when he is convinced Merlin has something with someone else, he goes absolutely feral. He avoids Merlin for days until he realises that Merlin doesn't care, then he makes a 180 and pretty much begs on his knees for Merlin to come back. At the same time, Arthur punishes whoever lord seems to have been too close to Merlin. Arthur was also, once, jealous of a horse.

They drink wine in the evening. And sometimes Merlin stays so late, that he has no choice but to stay over. And then, uuups - he shagged the prince. It's okay, it surely won't happen again tonight, will it? *cough cough*

Merlin's magic is very attached to Arthur... and Arthur will deny it, but he really, REALLY likes Merlin's magic. *wink wink*.

Arthur has rewritten at least 10 laws for Merlin before the magic ban is repealed.

... I can't give you all my headcanons, I need them for my fics, lmao XD

Ships from other fandoms that remind me of Merthur, you ask?

Thank you for the question, anon! I hope you liked your answers!