The Reluctant Inquisitor

“ i know how to open these bones with just my teeth. ” “ when i cried nobody heard me. ” “ i’m sorry that i come as an expired body, already worn and already unbecoming. ” “ yesterday i almost told you everything. ” “ shit happens in storms and we’re just caught in the middle of one. ” “ i want to be someone who isn’t a burden. ” “ you’d find a way to make it my fault. ” “ you push over sandcastles and tell me the ocean is the enemy. ” “ the worst part is that you’ll never say you’re sorry. ” “ i have trouble looking at you. ” “ when i close my eyes i see who you used to be. ” “ i guess i see you differently. ” “ it would be weird to die naked anyway. ” “ sometimes i wonder if it would be better to just sleep for a while. ” “ i feel like i have no idea what i look like. ” “ i look nothing like what i thought i did. ” “ i feel faded from my own life. ” “ i want to touch you or an open fire or whatever will hurt me. ” “ i feel like i’m living in a loop where the end is coming. ” “ i’m running out of time while i’m just sitting here. ” “ is it possible to be terrified of death and at the same time a ghost who doesn’t care if they’re drowning” “ i want to kiss you or cut you or kill myself. ” “ at some point i realized i would never come first. ” “ by then i was empty. ” “ i had to beg you to come back. ” “ it’s amazing how long you can convince yourself to wait for someone before you realize they aren’t coming.” “ the bitterness is taking over again. ” “ i feel like there are rats in my bloodstream, chewing out the good parts of me. ” “ i keep waking up unable to breathe. ” “ i could never be honest with you about what i was feeling. ” “ i stripped myself down to weeds. ” “ you need to see yourself as winning. ” “ it just hurts, i guess. that you still mean a lot to me. ” “ welcome to the world of consequences. ” “ i gave you something and you destroyed it. ” “ i wish you knew how to take responsibility for your actions. ” “ don’t look at me like that. ” “ you took everything you wanted. ” “ did you really think you’d get away with it ” “ i know you wanted it to be different. ” “ you threw yourself at others because for a second the idea of love could silence the rest of it.” “ how many people did you hurt just because you could ” “ you pushed them away and now you’re sad they won’t come crawling back. ” “ biting the knife eventually cuts your tongue. ” “ all you wanted was a happiness that didn’t taste of blood. ” “ it is an odd thing to get over what hasn’t been. ” “ chew off the parts of yourself that refuse to callus and instead keep bleeding. ” “ the wound won’t close because the wound shouldn’t have opened. ” “ there is so rarely an ending before a beginning. ” “ the snake in my veins eats me. ” “ i would have chewed my own heart out if it meant feeding you. ” “ people are mirrors. ” “ i wasn’t good enough and the blood in me is dry already. ” “ i have all these plans but my hands are a paper cup and my dreams leak on out the bottom.” “ opportunities bang on my window and i wave at them as they pass by. ” “ i sit here wondering why i can’t argue myself into moving. ”