✘ ⌚ ❤ for Varlen and/or Hanin, if you're still doing these? :D
Hmm… I’ll do the first two for Varlen, and the last one for Hanin! It got a bit long so I put some under the cut
✘ - … An AU version of my muse (I went with an AU where Varlen never left the clan to go to the conclave)
How? How did he do it? Some days I can’t even get out of my own bed but he traveled to the ass-end of Thedas in the middle of winter and for what?
What is even the point. In any of it. When my sister and Keeper Deshanna asked me to go to the Conclave I just couldn’t see why I should be the one to leave everything. They said it might help, but I just… couldn’t risk it not helping. I was too afraid; it was like the final step. If I failed to get better there, then I’d just have to live with the fact that I never would. I’m… not sure I could live with that.
But looking at what happens - who I become - if I do… part of me regrets not leaving. I could have been a part of something. Been there for my sister when she needed a familiar face. I could have met new people, and let them show me I meant something on those nights where I just couldn’t see it. I could have met Dorian.
Instead, I’m just… here. Existing from day to day. Some days… it just doesn’t feel worth the effort. My sister has made something incredible of herself, and I’m not even there for her.
But… I’ll stop, now. I think I hear something. The watchers, maybe…
It sounds like there are humans coming.
⌚ - … A friend my muse has not met yet (Marius, a Red Jenny working in Tevinter [Post-Trespasser])