Shadow work day... i already don't know.

basically ive managed to do a little shadow work everyday while my baby is having a nap ive lost count of the days and i already feel like i am stuck. i feel overwhelmed again like i am doing too much. i cant figure out why i feel that way. expecially as i am not doing too much at all or at least i don't think i am. a mundane life is not something i want. i want to be always doing hobbies and doing constructive stuff. i want to be me and express myself. sure i could cut all that out and just concentrate on my child and husband only and go back to not thinking at all about me. or i could never express myself creatively. so not spend time making things but i dont want to. i need to be able to do it all. its alot harder to stay on track with this than i thought it would be! tomorrow i just need to be more strict with myself to stay focused. maybe a ritual or spell to help me feel more dedicated to this. i just have this dull feeling somewhere at the back telling me to just give up and stare at the wall. i suppose that's my depression.

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Carl Jung is an incredibly interesting swiss psychologist. Quotes from him are definatley worth a look, expecially if you are doing shadow work and have an interest in your shadow self. I'll post a link to some below as well as a short biography for him.

https://www.britannica.com/biography/Carl-Jung

https://www.google.com/search?q=c+g+jung&source=lmns&client=ms-android-h3g-gb&prmd=ivn&biw=360&bih=560&hl=en-GB&ved=2ahUKEwiQz9KWodvfAhWBlRoKHfCvDlwQ_AUoAHoECAAQAw#mie=mt,PersonQuote,c%20g%20jung,H4sIAAAAAAAAAONgVuLQz9U3SMo2LXrE6Mst8PLHPWEpl0lrTl5jtOPiCs7IL3fNK8ksqRRS4WKDsqS4eKTgmjQYpLi44DwlrqZ9Kw6xsXAwCjDwAADmhlSoXAAAAA

sorry the links are so long!

good luck with your shadow work.

Day 1&2 Shadow Work

so i figured during my shadow work i could draw some cards from my tarot deck each week or maybe each month or whenever i damn well feel like it. i am in no way a tarot master but i usually use them for a bit of insight into myself. i use 3 cards alot for past present and future readings and never for other people. this time i asked for an insight into how my month would go as there's pleanty going on for me right now good and bad.

The interpretation i got for myself was vastly different from what i got from tarot sites. i thought that it was really interesting that what i read so much described the situation i am in and how i thought it would go. alot of anger and frustration came out in my reading.

what the tarot sites had to say were much more positive. almost the complete opposite actually. perhaps i am just not a good card reader or maybe they had more information for me than i expected.

if anyone wants to message me about the reading you are better off emailing me on [email protected] to get in contact.

as for my huge list of stuff to work on. ive noticed it keeps getting smaller and smaller as i figure out that alot of them are connected or weirdly the same but in different wording.

i have already noticed a difference in my attitude since i started after just 2 days hopefully this means I'm doing something right.

sorry to everyone about my silence. again... i suffer from depression and anxiety and it can make doing things i really want to do (like posting here) really difficult. over the years i've tried so many things to deal with it. none of which have worked. the goddess has been telling me for a while now to do shadow work and to be honest its just another thing ive been putting off because its hard and its easier to ignore your problems than face them. i've never attempted it before so if anyone has advice i'd love to hear it.

ive started by listing all the worries and insecure thoughts that i have that i wish i didn't have. i actually ended up with a very long list which was shocking to me and it looks as though there are some patterns emerging. im going to categorise them so i can see which ones are similar and then i'm going to choose one a day for a month and ask myself questions about why i feel that way and how i can fix it or make it better in some way.

ill post about it here as i really want more people to know about shadow work and how it can help them heal and you guys can see if it works for me.

I definitely needed this this morning

I had a baby recently and haven't had much time for crafts recently. I can't wait to get back into making candles.

Tribal Fusion Belly dancing is amazing it's so freeing and spiritual.

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