be kind.

I’m not even that pissed off about the way Dean died, it’s that he died period that’s disgusting. Who even reaped him? Who would reap Dean Winchester? Dean has said times and times again, as early as season 3, that he was tired. That he didn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, that he was gonna die with a gun in his hand,and hadn’t he given enough? His entire life he lived for others, convinced he’d die bloody. And guess what? There’s nothing satisfying in hearing this for 15 years, and have it come true. It’s bullshit. It’s such terribly bad writing. It’s taking everything Jensen built and telling him it didn’t matter. I feel like complete shit for him, beyond the show ending and beyond how bad the finale was, it’s unfair to give Dean and Jensen this ending. Kripke just took Swan Song and rewrote it. And Swan Song would have been a correct ending for season 5, but not for season 15. Things changed between then and now. But it’s like it was all for nothing. 

And Misha, who carried that show, who saved that show, with Castiel, who was the embodiment of love and free will, to be treated that way? To be left as a sidenote on a wikipedia page as the angel who fell for love and in love but who died before the end, for nothing? He didn’t deserve that. Jensen and Dean didn’t deserve that, and neither did we. 

And you know the worst part? I love that show. I love it so much. It was with me through everything, high school and college and moving abroad and leaving my family, depression, coming out, losing friends to suicide and accidents, losing my grandmothers, losing my nieces, all this time it was right there to pick me up and it told me that family didn’t end with blood and that if you kept fighting, if you kept believing that it was worth it, then good would prevail. That good things do happen. And they took all that, all that hope, and ripped it to shreds and sent it back to me with a “fuck you” note. They literally told us with that ending that death was the only way for them to reach happiness. They did that. The cast has spent years talking about mental health and suicide prevention, and they did that. That was their last message. To say we deserved better doesn’t even begin to cover it.

I think from a narrative point of view, it’d make no sense to not bring him back. With last night episode, every big narrative arc is wrapped up. It’s done, it’s over, Chuck is defeated, Death is gone, Michael is dead, Lucifer is dead, again, Jack is the new God, the people who disappeared were brought back (except for Eileen (and Cas (and that was on purpose))). Dabb said that 15x19 was the season finale and i guess 15x20 is the series finale. The epilogue. And it’s going to focus on the brothers and the family they have created and the relationships they’ve built over the years. Eileen needs to come back, and so does Cas. I was talking with a friend who is completely out of the fandom and when she heard that Destiel went canon and Cas had died and that it wasn’t the last episode, she was ????. She said that for an outsider, it’d be baffling not to have Castiel in the last episode, because everyone knows how central to the show Cas has become. And as someone who is def not an outsider, I agree. 15x19 ended with the brothers, just the two of them, and maybe that would have been okay if the show had ended with s5, but not now. That’d be shitting on everyhting they have built since then. And what would be the point of Lucifer using Cas’s voice to call Dean last night and the way Dean ran to the door, and how he demanded for Cas to be brought back, if they don’t follow up on that, or mention it at all? There’s been terrible writing over the years but not bringing Cas back would be the worst they’ve ever done. 

I’ve been rewatching everything from the begining for the past couple of months and I’m up to season 7, and do you know how many times Dean and Sam have said that they have given enough? That they are tired and have done enough? They are right. They deserve to rest and just take a few monster hunts here and there, build a family if they want to, with their loved ones. They deserve that soft epilogue. And I hope against all hopes that the writers will them have it.