thinking about the fact that last week jensen questioned what could even happen in the finale now that they’d beat god
thinking about the fact that jensen didn’t like the ending and had to be talked into it by literally everyone around him and then we found out dean got butchered 15 min. into the finale
thinking about the fact that jensen put serious thought into dean and cas’ relationship and said that dean couldn’t reciprocate only because he couldn’t process the confession and that dean spent years wanting cas but not being able to because he thought cas didn’t feel that way about him
thinking about the fact that jensen said that “dean has no taste clearly” while smiling softly because he definitely thought dean was sweet on cas
thinking about the fact that jensen felt the most emotional filming 15.18 and wanted to get a video of the two of them to treasure dean and cas’ moment forever instead of video of anything that happened in the finale
i’m so sorry jensen
you deserved better and so did dean