#vulnerability – @theereina on Tumblr

It has been about a little over a year for me since I discovered that I am possibly asexual (demisexual). That was the most confusing, yet eye-opening moment of my life. Throughout my life, I felt like I was not sexually or romantically attracted to almost anyone, irl. Yes, I had crushes, but I couldn't understand why I wasn't like other girls who were dating and having fun. Unfortunately for me, I am now trying to heal and unpack a lot of my trauma that I know contributed to and led me to being "asexual".

Sidebar: I am still not 100% sure if asexual is the correct term for how I feel which is why I say demisexual, as well. So, maybe I am the "q (questioning)" in lgbtqia.🤭

Happy Pride Month!🏳️‍🌈

#asexual #demisexual #asexuality #demisexuality #lgbtq #lgbtqia #vulnerability #happy pride 🌈#pride month #pride #aromantic #aromance #asexual aromantic

theereina reblogged

theereina

God, I'm tired.

Im tired of:

fighting for the bare minimum
losing myself
clawing through darkness
praying for better days
being alone when all I need is someone's presence
feeling unappreciated by those I give the world to
desiring more but somehow falling short
viewing the world with kindness and compassion without reciprocation
being led by the "blind"
praying for comfort but never finding peace
living and breathing but never "living"
trying to breath when every breathe feels like a painful reminder

*I am a human person having a human experience. I am posting this to show that everyone falls short at times. Sometimes we need to be reminded that others go through "life", too. THIS POST IS POORLY FOR SELF EXPRESSION AND TRANSPARENCY.

theereina

God, I'm tired.

Im tired of:

fighting for the bare minimum
losing myself
clawing through darkness
praying for better days
being alone when all I need is someone's presence
feeling unappreciated by those I give the world to
desiring more but somehow falling short
viewing the world with kindness and compassion without reciprocation
being led by the "blind"
praying for comfort but never finding peace
living and breathing but never "living"
trying to breath when every breathe feels like a painful reminder

*I am a human person having a human experience. I am posting this to show that everyone falls short at times. Sometimes we need to be reminded that others go through "life", too. THIS POST IS POORLY FOR SELF EXPRESSION AND TRANSPARENCY.

#a talk with god #dear diary #dear self #note to self #i'm not okay #dear god #god first #praying #vulnerability #being human #being honest