The only child I have the capacity to take care of is my inner child. I do not currently want children, and I may never want children. My wounds are too deep. The amount of healing I need may take a lifetime, and I refuse to put any child through that.
Children deserve happiness without conditions. My health, both mental and physical, are conditions I WILL NOT subject any children to endure.
To the children I will probably never have, this comes from a place of love and selflessness. I just hope the world can understand.
Honestly, I don't think anyone can hurt me more than my mother and father have.
This is me. I bought both my niece and younger cousins journals. One journal for personal things that they don't want others to read but want to express. The other journal is for thoughts that they are okay with others reading or need help with. I wanted them to have other outlets to express their feelings. It definitely worked for my younger cousin, and she actually still uses them.🥰
I have officially reached the next phase of having a narcissistic parent. The fact that I am disagreeing with them, calling them out on their past/present BS, and standing up for myself led to me being asked repeatedly "if I hate them". When I ask why they think that, the answer is nothing/silence or a past disagreement is brought up. I've never been given a valid reason.
The "hate" that they are speaking of is merely me dissociating and detaching from situations because of being mentally/physically/spiritually exhausted and drained.
*If I had somewhere else to go, I would have left a long time ago. If I ever get the chance to leave, I'm never coming back and going no contact. I don't care how anyone feels.🤷🏽♀️
I have officially reached the next phase of having a narcissistic parent. The fact that I am disagreeing with them, calling them out on their past/present BS, and standing up for myself led to me being asked repeatedly "if I hate them". When I ask why they think that, the answer is nothing/silence or a past disagreement is brought up. I've never been given a valid reason.
The "hate" that they are speaking of is merely me dissociating and detaching from situations because of being mentally/physically/spiritually exhausted and drained.
*If I had somewhere else to go, I would have left a long time ago. If I ever get the chance to leave, I'm never coming back and going no contact. I don't care how anyone feels.🤷🏽♀️
