Find Your More
Find your more - Introduction
Hi guys. I was scrolling through my dash today and the Find Your More “challenge” came up. After reading about it I realized that its principles are pretty spot on with what I have been trying to do this past month. So I decided to join in.
So, hello again. My name is Hannah and I’m 17. I am kind of a nerd and am currently in my senior year of college. I homeschooled the last few couple years of high school and I’m currently taking courses through the online branch of my university. When I attended “real” school, I was fairly active. I played varsity volleyball and basketball and I enjoyed them immensely. I never changed my diet though so even with rigorous exercise my body never got where I wished it would be.
Fast forward a little bit, and at the end of the school year I found out I was pregnant. It pretty much shattered everything I knew about the world and my plans and dreams all seemed to go down the drain. I was told to leave the school (hence homeschooling) and I pretty much lost all my friends and everything that was normal and comforting to me.
Moving forward a few months, post partum (post baby) recovery was pretty easy and I returned to my old size immediately (props to basketball for keeping me fit when, unbeknownst to me, I was pregnant).
Its been two years since all of that..but these past two years I have struggled so much with myself. I wasn’t overweight or underweight, but I was still so incredibly unhappy with my body and with myself in general. My self confidence has always been low but I had been hitting lower than before. I think a lot of it was just out of loneliness. (No one really knows how to talk to the teen mom it seems. I’m a regular person, I swear lol.) On Facebook a friend of mine posted a challenge at the beginning of August for a work out program that focused heavily on clean eating and portion control with a 30 minute work out. It seemed easy enough, and I joined.
I have tried to get fit before but life got in the way. I work jobs at odd hours and I have a munchkin and college. But something in me snapped. I needed health to work this time. There are a lot of things I can be sad about and a lot of things I miss out on, but my body is my responsibility and I can, in fact, change it. And I succeeded with the program. I lost four pounds and a couple inches off my waist (note: I don’t need to lose very much so I wasn’t expecting massive results).
And let me tell you: I. Feel. Great. I feel empowered, confident, strong, and beautiful. I don’t know if I have ever been able to think that about myself. I truly feel like I can do or be anything as long as I practice. Being fit isn’t for the “naturally athletic” or “fitness obsessed” anymore. I began thinking why NOT me? Why not now? I’m working on solidifying this healthy lifestyle and fitness is a growing passion of mine now.
I started this blog to keep me and others motivated and to track my progress. It’s helping me find “more” out of life. I’m discovering I don’t need to cower behind insecurities and that failing doesn’t mean you’re a failure. I’m a recovering perfectionist with a beautiful son and a growing passion for life. I want to continue to find my “more”.