TW: personal chatter about sexual trauma
#oof#me#i mean also the sexual assaults#but aside from that#oh the rape#aside from that tho#oh wait hut the under 10 childhood sexual trauma too#alright BUT#this is still a thing cause the first time i tried to have sex on purpose#it was too early and i wasnt ready and it hurt SO BAD#i was 15#but also prior to penetration was 14 and had everything else under the sun done to me#hmm#still#this hits hard