Cosmic Pastries

I had to think about this one for a little bit, because on one hand, I'm a person who starts getting anxious if I leave messages too long, but on the other hand, I also know how it feels to have a great idea and not be able to remember it later.

So, for now, I'm gonna say yes. As long as you're willing to wait for a Jam Day to actually get your fic, you can send me requests whenever. I'll make a google doc keeping a running record like I've done with my own ideas.

However.

If even one person starts nagging me to get their fic done, I will stop allowing this.

We copacetic? Cool.

Mama: (going through drawers, holds up corkscrew) What do you think, should we keep this?

Me: I mean, when have we ever had wine that was expensive enough to have an actual cork?

Mama: ... Fair. (tosses it in the give-away box)

I'm bored and curious, so!

Fellow grown USians, when you were a kid, what did you call that thing where you went up to the drink machine and tried to cram as many flavors as possible into one cup?

Reminder that this dickweed is the one currently trying to force a program that would spend state money on vouchers for out-of-state religion-based schools run by Hillsdale College, the only school that could match Liberty University for the amount of right-wing evangelicalism it's inserted into issues of education.

The owners of The Onion buying InfoWars may be the funniest thing that's happened this season.

I really really really want to play the pristine cut but my brain and heart can't take it right now.

Me: The therapist said we're supposed to be recovering, you asshole.

🧠: But I haven't given us our daily dose of guilt for non-productivity yet! Here we go!

Me: Fuck.

So, saw my therapist today, talked about the fuckery over the last week.

He told me that, unfortunately, "Mixed Phase" is a very real thing and it's generally considered one of the most dangerous phases a Bipolar patient can have, because when the deep hopelessness and self-hatred of the depressive phase and the high-energy impulsiveness of the manic phase combine, that's when the most self harm or suicide cases happen. That in fact the last time I had a close call was probably due to a Mixed Phase as well.

Joy.

On the same note, though he wished it wasn't due to previous bad experiences, he was pleased with me for having the self-awareness to recognize that having unfettered access to medications while undergoing this was a bad idea and act accordingly. And that he hopes I don't have any squish accidents this week so that I can have some time to recover all the energy I burned through.