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Our designs are free to use for anyone. As long as you meet our stated boundaries there is no issue with you all using anything we create. I prefer to be credited- not because I think it’s necessary but we just like seeing fanart.

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Good question. Host switches happen for people with DID/OSDD. If I had to guess we’ve switched hosts maybe 4-5 times in our life (that’s a guess because I don’t remember most of my life)

Host switching is comparable to dormancy in a way- dormancy happens when an alter is not necessary for the current circumstances. We have alters who are dormant because they were made for certain abusers, but now we don’t interact with said abuser- so they aren’t necessary to front unless something relating to that topic comes up.

With host switching-hosts are host’s typically because of traumatic circumstances. Maybe you’re system needs a host to be constantly on guard, or a host who is people pleasing to avoid further abuse, or a host who denies the whole system so you can’t access certain memories. For us we had the latter as an ex-host. He wasn’t bad or evil, just he didn’t believe we were a system and refused to acknowledge what extreme trauma made us form. So he was deemed not fit for the title host once we became aware. It was not necessary to deny the system so his influence was not necessary either.

It’s not an instant thing that happens- it takes months for a host switch. For me I just slowly fronted more and then the old host went fully dormant. Soon I gained more memory access and awareness a host would have. It’s scary, I didn’t choose to be host (frankly I don’t want to be, this place fucking sucks) likewise our ex host didt choose to be dormant either,, but that’s just system life for you! no free will! Yay!

But yeah to summarize, for us it’s a thing that happens when your personal environment changes drastically. So you’re brain puts someone who can appropriately handle the new environment and be host.

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I love these free passes..thank you..please give me more 🫶🏽

Spending my pass on a rant about the online perception of DID/OSDD

One thing I find interesting is the concept of fake claiming and how that’s affected the community. In 2020 there was a large increase in mental health “awareness” online- mass vague posting of common symptoms and connecting it to larger disorders. This eventually lead to a lot of people misdiagnosing themselves with DID/OSDD. And Contrary to popular belief, I actually think most misdiagnosing was in good faith- younger teens for the first time connecting to disassociation, maladaptive day dreaming, emotional swings, PTSD, and derealization- and genuinely believing they had it. It’s more likely they had more common disorders like maybe Bpd, DDD, depression, psychosis- because there is a huge overlap in symptoms. (It’s also important to note it was also a huge awakening for actual systems too- because I’m definitely not saying everyone who had did/osdd in 2020 was misdiagnosed, in a lot of cases people were right!)

Buttttt

The internets reaction to this wasn’t with reeducation or kindness or even respectful criticism- it created a whole list of “faking signs”. I personally think the people who misdiagnosed themselves harmed the community much less then the people pushing for constant fakeclaiming. And now these arbitrary concepts plague actual systems pushing them into a deeper denial and opening them up to waves of unwanted harassment. Like ok, here’s some common misconceptions you’ll see (all the ones I’m listing are just bullshit and are contradicted with actual medical research)

-Systems can’t have fictives

-Systems can’t unmask

-Systems can’t have littles

-Systems can’t have factives

-Systems can’t have internal relationships

-Systems can’t have high amnesia

-Systems can’t have rapid switches

-Systems can’t have faceclaims or go by different genders/sexualities

ALL OF THIS IS BULLSHIT! None of these actually are backed up with medical research! And the worst part is I see groups of people just harass normal systems who show these normal symptoms and constantly fakeclaim them. I see cringe compilations, r/fake disorder cringe, tik toks, and video essays just spewing this nonsensical shit and it genuinely hurts. (It’s SO ANNOYING when they say shit like “people who do this hurt actual systems” YOUR HURTING ACTUAL SYSTEMS SHUT UP 😭) but Yes I do think there are people out their who do fake this disorder and use it to hurt and manipulate people. But I don’t think that’s the majority of misdiagnosed people. Even if someone was wrong I think it’s safer to just ignore them then to spread misinformation about DID/OSDD and encourage the possible harm onto genuine systems. (Also being wrong and admitting you are wrong is fine)

But yeah I’ll end my rant by saying If you support this weird online fakeclaiming witch hunts then I don’t want to associate with you. And to the self diagnosed systems or suspecting systems, it’s incredibly hard being in that position- harassment is almost guaranteed online and that sucks. Self diagnosis is valid especially if you can’t afford DID specialists- however with that statement If you do self diagnosis its necessary to do research. Don’t look at plural pedia or random websites- I recommend reading the DSM and The haunted self (it explains the fundamentals of structural dissociation)

PDF for the actual book ^^ (it’s also good for self diagnosed systems because it can help you weed out any other possible disorder overlap with BPD and PTSD)

But yeah 🙁 sorry for the rant I’m just really frustrated with the current climate of the internet especially for systems.

Oh wow- I’m reading through all the asks (there’s so much) and I always feel bad when I miss sweet ones like this. That’s really kind, thank you. To all the systems here I hope you guys are doing well. 🙁🫶 that’s just really kind. Whoever sent this ask I hope you have a good day

Side note I usually don’t do sign offs (mainly because I’m scared of fake claiming- or appearing cringe to non systems) but I could start doing it. it’s just easier for me to look at my posts a know who said what or who drew what because idk I like to keep track of it. Can’t enforce it with others because they aren’t all too comfortable with being open or even admitting we are a system but as the new host I’m more comfortable being out.

But yes any other systems here feel free to send in asks because typically I’ll answer them- those are my favourite asks to get tbh

-✚ Psych

Oh well it was originally a mix of “the alternative” but a friend pointed out it could mean “the alter” which fits better since we are a system. Also we liked that Hal was in the name because of hal9000 from space odyssey and lilhal from homestuck- we love sentient ai.. but yeah thanks for the ask

Yes! I have the link on my navigation page but I’ll post it here

I don’t take too many slot’s because I’m very busy- but slots will refill each month! If you can’t afford it that’s ok- you can send in a ask and you still have a chance at me drawing it. Just commissions guarantee high effort, customization, and it actually being made

OSDD-1b also known as other specified dissociative disorder is basically DID with less full black out amnesia.

Most people with OSDD-1b still have mental greyouts, emotional amnesia, and selective amnesia- but not full blackouts most the time

Technically we are officially placeholder diagnosed with UDD (which means “unspecified dissociative disorder” which is an emergency diagnosis- it can mean different things for everyone but for us it means our psychiatrist is figuring out which type of system we are because we do blur the lines of DID and OSDD-1b and my amnesia has to be fully evaluated and recorded to determine that)

but some of us just personally prefer the label OSDD-1b? For them It feels safer not acknowledging how extreme our amnesia is- but I don’t really relate to it personally so I might just change our descriptions to say “system” instead because we do experience blackouts- and from the medical professionals I’ve talked to they lean heavier on us having DID instead of OSDD.

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But yes we are a system because we experienced a verity of extreme traumas as a child before our ego states could fully integrate. DID and OSDD form the same way through childhood trauma. important to note that it’s important to look at the other variants of DID (poly fragmented, HC-DID, P-DID) just as it’s important to look at OSDD/1a/1b

but yes systems within secondary or tertiary dissociation have many ways to present.

(I’m trying to discourage myself from writing paragraphs on DID because FUCK it’s my hyperfixation)

I’m not going to lie when I first got this ask I was like “fuck I gotta make the best art peice ever” then I found this abomination in our files- so here have our *worst* peice ever

Boy is being eaten like cheesecake 🙁. Each time I get one of these non art requests I feel like I should post some art with it for no reason. The post just feels naked without it. Here was my original draft of horse dream and I just think it looked fucking stupid.