Thank you to the person who liked a video of mine from a very long time ago and made me realize that I had a YouTube channel with too many videos of me “vlogging” and they were just down right horrible and embarrassing. Wow. I’m just so glad those are gone and deleted now. Now I can embarrass myself in new ways to find in 5 years and freak out again.

Can’t write this anywhere else, so here we go.

I couldn’t brush my teeth today. Or my hair.

I could hardly get out of bed at all.

I woke up at 5 am in ridiculous pain, and stayed up for 2 hours until I eventually fell back asleep. I had a constant pain almost all day, and cried for a good portion of the afternoon.

And I watched Brokeback Mountain, which didn’t help matters at all.

Every night I say “Please let tomorrow be a good day, and if it’s not, let the next day be good.” Today was not a good day, but tomorrow will hopefully be.

And shoutout to my cbd oil for being there to bring me out of my spiral.