I needed this.
I want to hold you, lightly between two fingers to press you between my lips and take drags. i want to light you, while breathing you in just to exhale you. and watch you disappear. i want to feel you, with all your casual glamour pretend for a moment you are, who I am. but I do not wish to keep you and I will not form a habit however, I am prone to addiction and "just once" is never really worth it.
teerrrriibbllee-blog reblogged
"recovery is a long process"
No mother is ever, completely, a child's idea of what a mother should be, and I suppose it works the other way around as well. But despite everything, we didn't do so badly by one another, we did as well as most.
I wish she were here, so I could tell her I finally know this.
Offred (real name unknown)
of Margaret Atwood's The Handmaid's Tale
Shame on me for kissing you with my eyes closed so tight.
bottle up and explode
over and over.