yep it's official it's going around again I'm going to be sick I'm taking a break for possibly a few months who knows
I wonder if I can find one of those themes that requires a password or something before people can look at my blog
bruh do you know how tempting it is to delete my blog and remake like this is how strong I feel about this damn post
okay I've turned my asks off for a little while until I know that's not going around again thanks again to that one person for being understanding I appreciate you a lot <3
I'm going to leave my ask on for just a few more minutes but then it's off because I don't want this again
inspector-starfish replied to your post:
isnt that post good????????? are people dense
it was meant to be, yes, but I still got a lot of not very nice messages about "spreading misinformation" when it wasn't misinformation
oh my god there are people on my blog brought here from that post no no no no please I'm begging you
IS THAT POST WHY MY NOTIFICATIONS ARENT SHOWING UP ON MY XKIT APP??? oh god
I got an ask about my hotel post =))))) it's been about a year and a half and 7 different urls later =)))) all the regret I have for make that post has come surging up on top of everything else =)))))
I'm having lemonade for dinner because it's pretty much the only edible thing I bought with my money in this house and I refuse to eat anything they bought
I've been thinking about it for a while when maybe when I can manage it my might tattoo might be "Keep going." or "Keep moving forward." I'm not sure which yet
some days like today I ask myself why I keep going when I just want to give up but then I get so much love pouring in from my friends and they're the reason I keep going I don't deserve them at all but they make dragging through each day worth it
I'm sorry to everyone who got my emotional breakdown on your dash I'll be better about moving it to my side blog next time
and I have successfully spiraled completely so off to the side blog I go
I wish I could stop crying
"oh sky come rescue me from these horrible people who do everything for me and let me eat their food and use their internet and sleep under their roof" fuck off. fuck off. you know this statement right here shows me how much fucking trust and faith you have in me. and that's none. you only see me as some helpless child who needs taken care of or coddled. when what I really need is an actual God damn support system to help me finally get out of the damn dirt. I don't know what I'm doing, and I've come to you so many damn times for help and advice for getting on my feet. you've given me nothing. you refuse to hear anything I say until I'm up to my neck in money. the fact is that if I wait that long, I will not survive. living in this town with you is killing me. my opportunity is now, and you're angry because I've found a support group that isn't you. I've found people who are willing to give me the best advice they can for how to make it. I've found people who care about me so much they'll let me move in with them, so we can all learn how to be adults together. you're angry because I'm finding my wings without you. "you need to find your own place. you've got to do something about this." guess what. I have. and it's not fucking here with you.