Last Night As I Was Sleeping
I dreamt—marvelous error!—
that I had a beehive
here inside my heart.
And the golden bees
were making white combs
and sweet honey
from my old failures.
—Antonio Machado
When People Ask How I'm Doing
by Rudy Francisco
I want to say, My depression is an angry deity, a jealous god, A thirsty shadow that rings my joy like a dishrag And makes juice out of my smile. I want to say, Getting out of bed has become a magic trick. I am probably the worst magician I know. I want to say, this sadness is the only clean shirt I have left and my washing machine has been broken for months, but I’d rather not ruin someone’s day with my tragic honesty so instead I treat my face like a pumpkin.
I pretend that it’s Halloween. I carve it into something acceptable. I laugh and I say, "I’m doing alright."
Snowy Night
by Mary Oliver
Last night, an owl in the blue dark tossed an indeterminate number of carefully shaped sounds into the world, in which, a quarter of a mile away, I happened to be standing. I couldn’t tell which one it was – the barred or the great-horned ship of the air – it was that distant. But, anyway, aren’t there moments that are better than knowing something, and sweeter? Snow was falling, so much like stars filling the dark trees that one could easily imagine its reason for being was nothing more than prettiness. I suppose if this were someone else’s story they would have insisted on knowing whatever is knowable – would have hurried over the fields to name it – the owl, I mean. But it’s mine, this poem of the night, and I just stood there, listening and holding out my hands to the soft glitter falling through the air. I love this world, but not for its answers. And I wish good luck to the owl, whatever its name – and I wish great welcome to the snow, whatever its severe and comfortless and beautiful meaning.
More than anything poetry is what keeps me sane.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
An untitled poem
First line: Two kinds of grace there are
• Seamus Heaney •
Christina Rossetti:
I have no wit, no words, no tears;
My heart within me like a stone
Is numb'd too much for hopes or fears;
Look right, look left, I dwell alone;
I lift mine eyes, but dimm'd with grief
No everlasting hills I see;
My life is in the falling leaf:
O Jesus, quicken me.
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Oh! fruit loved of boyhood — the old days recalling,
When wood-grapes were purpling and brown nuts were falling;
When wild, ugly faces we carved on its skin,
Glaring out through the dark, with a candle within...
Mary Oliver
Daisy Sims Hilditch Autumnal Afternoon in St James's Park
October 18, St. Luke’s Little Summer
Edward Thomas - 'October'