THE EYES OF A FRIGHTENED BOY
Probably it’s not really relevant, but I find quite interesting that when the first force connection happens you see Ben calling Luke by his name, for the first time.
“You’ll bring Skywalker to me”
Finding Skywalker is his top mission. But he still isn’t aware of how close Luke might be…
This is what Kylo Ren wants, this is how Kylo Ren was created, he’s the Jedi Killer…HE NEEDS TO FIND SKYWALKER, that’s his mission, based on revenge and betrayal
But as soon as he starts to sense him, you can see his face changing and you can see how he probably had been thinking about that meeting before, but suddenly he’s not prepared……he’s scared
After THAT night at the Jedi Temple, he never saw Luke again, he probably never sensed him again, he has vanished after all.
Kylo Ren was built upon that betrayal. Kylo Ren is the mask Ben Solo created to be stronger, to overcome the fear and the trauma of that night.
Suddenly he’s facing the reality of the moment, sensing his uncle after long years. In that particular moment, all the masks he built break and he’s BEN SOLO, who remembers that night, who still thinks that his uncle betrayed him.
That’s why he calls him “LUKE” and it’s the first and last time we heard him calling him in that way; there’ s a certain familiarity in his voice, because Ben Solo is taken by surprise.
At the very end, he finds Skywalker, his mission is completed, he can destroy him and the Jedi order…or that’s what he likes to think. But when he slays Luke with all his rage, what he finds out instead is that EVEN REVENGE can’ t fill that void he has inside.
He’s so sure to have slayed him in half, he hesitates to look back, but when he does and he sees that Luke is still there, beyond his understanding, you can see those same wide frightened eyes. He’s AFRAID, like he was that night, the trauma is still there.
That fear of failure, that fear of betrayal, is still there, it will always be in some places of his heart, until he will find a way to overcome what happened that night, until he will understand that he won’t win his inner war by killing what he hates, but by fighting for who and what he loves.
Rey and the future they saw together are the shifting point, why it’s still worthy to fight.