Hello there. I’m not sure if anyone still cares at this point and this is an apology that comes two years too late, but I logged in today because I couldn’t keep this guilt with me any longer.
Two years ago I was in a really bad place on a personal level and sadly the news of Jen leaving OUAT and the threat of losing the one thing that still gave me some joy in my messy life (Captain Swan) made me go down a very negative and hateful spiral. This isn’t an excuse for my behavior: everyone has their issues and their problems and lots of people still find ways to be respectful and graceful without resorting to hate and pettiness. I didn’t, and I have to accept it and deal with the consequences of it. I was wrong and my behavior was appalling.
I am really, really sorry for all the hateful posts I’ve made regarding OUAT, Colin, Jen and Colin/Hook/S7 fans. It honestly makes me sick to go back on my blog and read some of the things that I wrote. I am sorry if any of my posts have ever made you feel bad about yourself. I know it doesn’t help much, but believe me that it was never my intention to hurt anyone. I was overtaken by bitterness and hate.
I know neither will read this, but I also want to apologize to Colin and Jen. I was judgmental, getting myself involved in their lives when it was never any of my business to do so and I made assumptions about them as people. It wasn’t fair and it was way out of line.
I will not be updating this blog anymore and I will be deleting all my posts that don’t involve the fics and metas I wrote and the gifs I made. I don’t want my very wrong and stupid takes to remain on the internet forever.
Lastly, I want to thank each and every one of you whom I’ve met and talked to over the years. It was awesome to meet you and you have contributed to a wonderful fandom experience (until I lost it in the last months of posting).
