it was a nice day

I don't know if we're going to be okay, but I will continue to hope so.

I have spent decades, wondering what’s wrong with me, why I don’t feel the same way other people seem to, even as I tried to pretend to feel the way society said I should. I’d mostly stopped letting it bother me, but it was still there, in the background.

And then I watched Good Omens 2. And found the fandom, and tumblr, and the fanart and fanfics. And then I also found out about asexuality and aromaticism and all the various shades, which I had no idea was even a possibility, and the more I learned the more I realized who I am and why I feel the way I do.

There is nothing that has really changed (and it is unlikely that I will ever be out in real life, beyond to a partner), but it has provided an immense amount of comfort and relief to be able to put a label on myself, and understand that there is nothing wrong with me, it’s just the way I am.

This last month has been incredibly hard, to think that something that has helped my life so much is now altered and tainted, and in some ways it always will be. But this story and these characters have become so much more than what was started, and so no matter what happens from here, what this has done for me won’t ever be taken away.

So, thank you. Thank you to anyone who has ever spent a few seconds or many hours on artwork or a story or analysis of a scene or a character, or reblogged or shared silly jokes or serious metas. I will always be eternally grateful for what the Good Omens fandom has done for me.

I hope to continue to live my life in a way that would not cause David Tennant to say that the world would be a better place if I shut up.