steveyockey reblogged
it’s just like. AHH!!!! because dean wants a relationship with his mother where she acts like the memory of a woman that was polished and glossed up and sanctified through her death. the memory who was a lynchpin of his fantasy of being allowed to be a child who has a home and a mom. and obviously she doesn’t act like that! how do you change a martyr back into a person? what do you do when a bedtime story turns into a stranger? how are you meant to make that stranger family?
#ret is choosing violence#it’s also fucked up because he wants mary to be the mary who looked to HIM to comfort her when her husband yelled or stormed out#like he wants her as his mom and he also wants her to NEED him and for her to accept he’s done it all for her#but she’s just like no you didn’t. you are your own person and your actions are your own. I deserve the same rights. and it drives him CRAZY#spn#she should like cry beautifically about how she wasn’t there for him but he still grew into the charming man she knew he would be#and she’s like I. don’t know you.#damn